Who Am I?

Who am I?

I know I am nothing special

And full of flaws

An individual, a dreamer

Maybe sometimes against the laws.

Who am I?

What do I love?

What are my desires?

Where will I go?

I am still stuck in the past

And I worry the future fate 

I am stuck between black and white

Or maybe I am just grey.

I really want to know

Who I am?

So I go to personality tests to understand

But I end up more confused

Of where I actually stand,

But I think labels are not necessary

So why do I keep going back to it

That same self introspection land.

Wait,

I know small things like

I hate goodbyes

I am constantly anxious inside

I cling to memories 

And I am not so love treasury 

But wait,

Ain't I a mess

Or maybe I am a struggle I guess 

Am I enough 

Or something more or less?

I am all my scars

And maybe some society implicated thoughts

I am all the stars within

And maybe I need to unlearn, somethings that were taught 

I am all my relationship knots

And I am the one who in herself is caught.

I am the one who judges you

For being a certain way 

I am the one who gets judged 

For potraying this pretentious play,

I am the one who tries

The trial to fit in the either sides

Trial to make my self more relatable

More likable, more tangible

More acceptable

But

Do I need to question myself 

Or let myself just be?

Who am I?

I am a human

And humans evolve

I change as I live

So I guess I will just have to wait

With time and see

To know a better me.