Thinking About You

I think about you so many times.

Many times during the day.

And, many times through the night.

More often than I actually expected.

More often than it’s really needed.

Sometimes, it's scary to think about it.

It’s scarier than I could imagine.

It’s scarier than you could realize.

But, sometimes, it feels good and soothing.

So soothing that it’s hard to explain in words.

That feeling is intangible and indescribable.

Feels amazing and scary at the same time.

Talking to you in your presence has always been good.

But, remembering you in your absence is entirely different.

It's as though you are with me.

It's as though we are at the same place.

Talking about anything and everything.

Or doing nothing but just spending time in companionable silence.

It feels good and peaceful.

It’s relaxing and relieving sometimes.

Yet so painful or regret or guilt, during other-times when I hurt you through my words or actions knowingly or unknowingly.

We need different things from life at the current point of time.

But when you get more matured or when the time is right,

You would understand what I have been trying to tell you all along.

There are many things besides power and money.

Money and power are important to an extent.

But, beyond that, there is something much more to life.

Something that’s difficult to explain in words.

It can only be felt when we really are happy from within.

You say that I overthink.

But I think that it's necessary to think.

You say that I over analyze things.

But I feel that it's essential to relate things properly.

Both of us are completely different in many things.

Our ways of living and thought process are different.

We are like north and south poles.

From different backgrounds with different understanding of life.

Not sure what's the common point that connected us.

We are poles apart, we both know it.

I know that you understand our situations.

But, you say that you don't want to understand.

You say that you don't care but I do.

But, whatever the situation is.

Wherever we are.

However things are.

I always care for you.

More than you can imagine.

More than I could care to admit.

I might appear tough because I do not want to create any unwanted expectations.

But, maybe you would understand me completely someday.

I am sure you would.

Because true feelings always have the best intentions at heart.

They cannot yield instant results.

But, with patience and endurance, they may result in a successful outcome in the long run.