Tea

I lie here,

On my mother's lap.

She asked me,

If I wanna have some tea.

I lay mute

Right there.

"Beta! Are you okay?"

'Yes, Ma! I'm fine.'

Only my heart knew,

That I was not mute.

I was screaming, 

My soul was aching,

Every drop of my blood

Was shouting, 

Every organ, every cell of mine 

Was howling. 

My tears desperately wanted freedom,

As they were trapped inside me.

But I was mute, outside. 

Every ounce of me,

Every atom of my body

Was groaning. 

I wanted to cry out loud and tell her...

And I said

"Ma! I'm depressed. 

Those constant headaches,

That's not sinusitis. 

That's something 

Way more serious and dangerous."

"Ma! I have my own dreams,

And I'm killing them for papa's dreams. 

I wanna fulfill mine!

I'll be successful. 

I promise. "

All this...

In my head.

And I got up,

Wiped one free teardrop

Lying on my cheek

And said...

"Ma! Let's have some tea."