Side Work

I got gaslighted,

To believe I am faulty,

A rejected piece,

The burden to earth, 

Poor me,

Never questioned your opinions,

Not because I was dumb,

Because of fear, 

Fear of losing you,

Like thrones around the rose,

I tried to hold your fake love,

Till I bled with insults, 

When the clouds of self-hate left,

Sunshine came into my thoughts,

Like self-love,

Which you never allowed, 

I found out loving me is your side work,

But,

Loving me now became my full-time work,

And roses blossom in my heart every day.