Platonic Rage

Platonic lies- leaving me;

Platonic rage- leaving you;

Not all are platonic-

Not all I love yous;

Not all hugs;

Not all stares;

Not all that stays. 

I envy her, for I need you.

Not all ‘love you’ mean reality

Not all ‘hearts’ mean friendship.

Not all ‘hugs’ mean comfort. 

You know how I know this?

Since we don’t do them anymore.

Since you don’t use them anymore.

You know when I knew this?

Since the day you stopped them

With me. 

I envy her, for I need you.

Beside me, healing and feeling

My words and emotions, alright.

I envy her, for I need you.

I’ve seen sides of you-

but not once the whole.

Maybe because I see what’s left of you

Maybe because I see what I want to 

Maybe because I see what you show 

But I’ve seen you. 

Felt you. Heard you. Seen you. 

I’ve seen the sappy shoulder

The cheesy lap

The warm chest

The mischievous smile 

The hip shake 

Gorgeous dimple

And sometimes, 

the needy heart

Yours and mine.

I envy her, for I need you Back,

to be my hack

For today and tomorrow;

For health and sickness;

For time and happiness;

For platonic rage and snubs;

For joy and prosperity;

For friendship and company;

For emotional tears and fears;

For life and beyond.

I envy her, for I need you back where you belong; where you started. With me.