One Sided Feelings

I miss him 

But he doesn't care a bit, nor he knows as if 

He won't care either way 

So I cry every night and talk to my pillows 

About how much I miss him and need him so bad 

I feel lonely, I'm scared I'll be gone and not to be loved 

I'm scared before I'll be in my grave no one loves me, 

But when the time comes everyone will and especially he will

Why can't we just die and then come back to life, when he loves me back finally?

When does he care about me finally?

I tried everything for him to love back 

But I simply think he doesn't.