Once again...

Here I am again, screaming out to the canvas,

Which you'd fill with paint, I fill it with words,

Kids long to see Santa, I wanna see Krampus,

I wanna fly to heaven like birds,

From MTBMB to Kamikaze,

From Fifty Shades of Grey to Halycon days,

A little more self sufficient, with music I'm tryna be,

Just trying to make myself happier in different possible ways,

It's just amazing how life gets me blinded and high,

When I'm happy, but then brings me back to reality, hits me with a lorry,

I'm done with it, done with with feeling like this, I'm not gonna lie,

Tired of apologizing for things I didn't do, just murdered the meaning of "sorry",

But it's fine, I guess we've all killed it at some point,

I keep trying with all I have, not to let one down,

I try not to make this-a-point,

Saw the pun? That's what I am I guess, a clown,

I guess it's fate, pain ordered me when I was delivered like a take-away,

Life just brings people in, just to show,

How well with my feelings, people can play,

Warm as fire at first, somehow in sometime they turn to snow,

You can do what you want but in life, you can't snatch my ardor,

Because most of the times, I've been knocked down by an insider,

Treat me like a punching bag, and punch me harder,

I won't spiral down or cry, I'll just smile wider,

Two hundred fifty six words by now,

Yet there's something I feel like I left out,

But then it's like, I don't know how,

I can put in words, what I wanna talk about.