LOVE- By Avik Choudhury

It was 5 am, and I wrote this poem for you,

I don't know if it is something or just a joke to you.

My coffee was getting cold,

some things were needed to be told,

I don't understand while I confront my feelings why my heart needs to be bold. 

My eyes look out for you, through every window, 

My heart searches for you in every moment to a crescendo.

My mind relates to you in every song,

That I have heard all this long.

I had screened my lungs out for you,

Still, I dont know whether my voice reached you. 

I cry every night in search of the answers to my questions of solitude,

Still, I dont know why do you hate me with this ignoring attitude. 

When you were avoiding me, I was learning to be happy without you,

Maybe you are still one of the goals that I want to pursue.

I want to forget you, you are a distraction which I cannot avoid,

I guess one day you will surely understand my void.

Every day I think what was wrong with me that you couldn't love me,

Maybe I was the creepy wallflower and you never wanted to be near me. 

Tears engulf my face every midnight hoping to know you more,

I guess it was always you who never wanted around, not anymore. 

I know I ain't perfect, I am always fighting my ghost,

But you were never there when I needed you the most.

I had my priorities, but how you define them,

It had to be someone so special like you to whom I could always commit.

Time never stops, and certainly, it won't stop for me,

Yet I will rewind time in my mind to cherish all memories with you which was friendship for you, but it was and will always be love for me.