Life is an Illusion

Surrounded by people yet all alone,

Trapped within this solitary zone.

A world where chaos and hate overtake 

Every bit of happiness that may try to escape.

Laughter and smiles never seem to last 

Because I am haunted by memories of my past.

Running the distance with nowhere to go

These are the days of my life, a Broadway show.

Screaming for help, does anyone hear?

The demons in my head are coming so near.

Echoes in my head tormenting me all day long,

Breaking the girl who was once very strong.

What does serenity mean anyway?

Is it the swag in my step or just the words I say.

Deep-rooted evil, no time for a soulmate

Wondering why joy is always a day late.

Suicide is the easy answer many times I have tried

Happiness seems to be the tears I have cried.

Unable to distinguish what's real and what's fiction

Hope is an illusion, an optimist's prediction.

What will it take to get me right

A visit from the devil on a lonely night.

Angels prepare to battle and take a stand 

To remind me of their holy land.

What I want to give up, they push me to be strong 

In my head, I hear their harmonious song.

A tranquil state I now find myself in

Dealing with the hand in which I was dealt.

Good versus evil, what does it really mean?

Am I dirty when I appear to be clean.

Life is an allusion, a constant mind trick on me

Who knows what my fate will be.

Heaven and hell are both fair game

Will I succumb to peace or fall down in shame.

Surrounded by people yet alone

Trapped within this solitary zone.