Knitten Smile

It just feels like this is the end,

And I have nothing to give but a smile to lend;

It feels like a guy like me,

Doesn't deserve to dream like a being;

It just feels like all my dreams have broken wings,

And I couldn't even hum a song and forgot how to sing;

It feels like my head weighs a ton and my neck can't bear it,

And even maybe the Earth feels I am a burden a bit;

I feel like my nights are sleepless,

And my days are hopeless;

And each time I try to smile, I can't and I don't know why?

It just feels like everything is moving too fast by;

So I knit up a smile on my face, to give others an impression,

But still no one sees my inside, because I hide my depression;

I wish I had someone to understand me,

So I can still be the one I used to be;

Now I think I am forgetting how to smile,

Because I still have wounds to heal;

They say the time heals everything,

But to me I feel like my clock isn't ticking;

Because my wound is so deep and dark,

And now it's grown worse but no one to mark;

They say the things once left are gone forever,

But my hope is there still to drain, And I think I can wait moreover;

As the seasons flee by me, unusually faster,

I think my dreams are fading deeper and deeper;

And I am sure there will be a day,

The day they understand me and regret the things they may have done;

I wish I could enjoy the change which I wish soon to come,

Before the last warmth from my body has gone;

And like I said it just feels like the end,

And it's time to turn this hapless chapter before it bends;

So long as the Earth's round and the birds fly,

I am sure my faith is to suffer and cry;

And I hope the peace would come to my doorstep and knock at once,

When I will be helping myself in my brand - new coffin all my own;

And like someone said life is a rope,

That swings us through hope;

Always believe that today is better than yesterday,

And tomorrow will be much better than today.