Infidelity

Do you do that too?

Squeaking the voice 

With a shine of curiosity in eyes

To look for every minute detail in someone

Someone you love

Do you lose control of years of training and hard work too?

Do you become raw?

Because I do that

I let my inner child show

When I feel safe, at peace

I let my guard down I think, around you

Other times, I act adult

But that day

My gaze was different 

Did you feel it?

It didn't glimmer like a galaxy

Didn't search for poetry in you

Or observe how your hair shine

Or your beard pokes 

Or every crevix of your slim face blends in itself

It stared right into your eyes

Until you felt shy, mistaking it for flirt

Your dark brown eyes, 

Giant as the mountains

Deep as the sea

So when the golden ray fell 

Turning them into light brown

A whole new world, new dimensions rose inside them

And I stared

Not admiring the myriads in it

But searching 

Searching for lies in those buildings

Maybe I can find it in some drawer beneath

Or some secret case

Or maybe it's somewhere lying in the streets

Undermining my blurry vision and foggy mind

I searched for deceit, for infidelity

And I'm sorry

You can assure me a hundred times

But I'll look for it again, I know

At slightest signs, for the faintest possibility

"All is well"

Just never sat right with me.