Dilemma of Survival

This dysfunctionality wrenches me, hollows me 

and it spills me at the same time

It fills me up to the brim with a void 

It's such an irony 

It asks me to look in and curl on myself

 Provides with an impalpable sheath or shield for that matter 

And I'm starting to like this warmth 

That emerges from the core 

I'm starting to like the wrath 

That submerges my whole

The wrath of blood and bloody relations

Of words and pragmatic obsessions 

Of friendships that I cherished once 

Of parents whom I caressed once

Of all the societal expectations 

The wrath of the once symbiotic connections 

Where I lie only a parasite now

I put out my sting from time to time 

Out there in the world 

And I suck it 

I suck on your blood

Do you ever notice it? I truly hope you don't

And let me reassure you, I do the bare minimum 

The bare minimum to stay alive

I suck the bare minimum to stay alive.

Sure, riches don't rise from pieces 

And I know it all too well 

So, don't look at me ,you all with questioning eyes 

I've got nothing to tell other than the same irony, warmth, wrath of acquainted rivals

The dilemma of needing love and denial

My dilemma of mere survival.