I Remember Back Then

I remember back then

When I used to get upset

And you would keep wandering around me

Making faces and whispering those I Love You’s

Until I smiled out loud

But today when I get upset,

No one cares to make me smile

The I Love You’s I pretended to abhor,

Unfortunately, I don’t get to hear them anymore.

I remember back then

When your classroom was just a few steps away

And still, I never had the courage to walk up to it

‘Cause the moment I would think of facing you,

My face would blush out like a bouquet.  

So I used to keep hanging on the doors of my classroom

Striving for that one glimpse of you that

Would completely make my day.

The moment I would see you, I could never digest my glee

As I couldn’t stop myself from turning red

So I used to turn about so that you don’t see me.

But now I've gained that courage,

The courage that I can walk up to your classroom,

And look into your eyes and tell you

How badly I feel heartsore

I wish to hang at those doors again

And wait for that glimpse,

This time I won't turn my back,

Rather I will walk up to you and tell you

How beautiful I've imagined our amour,

But unfortunately, I can’t find you anymore.

I remember back then

When you used to play in the school playground all day,

There was a window which provided the best view,

And I would just stick to it and watch you play.

I don’t know why staring at you

Felt so damn fascinating to me

That I started enjoying staring at you,

More than those lectures of trigonometry.

But, suddenly one day,

You stopped playing there,

And that playground without you

Seemed like a horrifying nightmare.

Nor I love that window today,

Neither that door,

‘Cause they don’t lead me, to you anymore.

I remember back then

When I lived a sober life,

Someone’s daughter,

Someone’s sister

And one day someone’s wife.

I never had that space to love, to love someone new,

You introduced me to this ocean of love,

And I jumped after you.

It was beautiful when you were around

But now it’s dark and dim

You were an experienced diver

And I didn’t know how to swim.