I Feel Like

I feel like I'm stuck 

In a stupid body, mentally 

I think am far beyond the 

Size of my body, am I 

Insane or am I driving my 

Self crazy, am I a toddler 

Stuck in an elder's body?

How will I tell my family 

That I have a problem?

Every time I bed wet,

Am so ashamed and 

Feel like I'll be tagged 

As something and treated 

Differently which is what I 

Don't want... how will I 

Be looked? will I be respected 

By my little sisters?

Am scared to speak 

Am scared to be judged 

I want them to know 

How much I bleed but

Am scared then let tears 

Shed fears on paper hoping 

They would read and 

Comprehend my shamefacedness 

Sometimes I feel like 

I could wake up dry not 

Wet for the rest of my life,

Every memory are slowly 

Fading away, am I old age 

In a toddler's body, am I 

Slowly perishing not enriching 

How can I tell you that 

I've been hiding behind 

My closet soaking in tears 

Hoping I would be dry before 

You wake up, am worried 

About my future, the woman 

I'll marry will she accept me 

I feel afraid to open up

To anyone cause they might 

Laugh at me...