I feel like killing myself

All the taunts, all the comments that you pass,

Do you ever realise it can actually cause so much damage to me?

All of this hatred,

All the comparisons;

Do you ever realise 

That you’re hurting me little by little?

Chafing my heart -

Piece by piece.

Pushing me in the chaos of my own eternal darkness.

You tell me that I criticise way too much,

Don’t you realise- what you’re doing is the same?

You expect me to keep a smile on my face.

How can i? When my minds not in the right place.

Im hurting deep within and yet and you’ve got no clue;

How even will you?

When I simply try to hide it, 

I try not to show you.

Im getting tired of all this,

It is bringing me down;

Somehow i try to manage a smile,

Not show you my frown.

You don’t really know how i feel deep within,

I turn my pain into poetry;

l escape into a land I dream of - 

A land so colourful.

The same land which has now turned black,

Which was once so bright and cheerful!

The sorrows have blinded me,

I see nothing ahead;

The rose once blooming,

Is now crushed and dead.