I am trying to Leave you but i can't

It is taking every fucking inch of my soul to unlove you 

You don't have any idea what I am going through and I wish there was a way that you knew 

I am unorthodox, I confessed too early and I know what mistakes I did

But they weren't mistakes, were they? And if they were, Note to self- I'll forbid 

I am a chaos, I am disoriented and I don't have a perfect image. 

Do you know how many times I have been hurt by this cruel world,

That this scar by you is all worth a primage

You ask me what do I want or what can you do to change

Or for love of God what Don't, aren't, shan't , omg enough. 

I am done now, I can't think of anything else,

I slept at 9:00pm and came to check on you at 9:10. 

My sleep is disoriented and I am practically bipolar. 

Everything irritates the hell out of me and it feels me I am a doll and you are the controller

How can I love you even when I have these irritative and toxic thoughts in my head 

It feels like I am sleeping on thrown scattered all over my bed. 

Love me or god please make her love me. 

Why do you not make a person love me back and why can't I turned into *we*. 

I know I am a bad person, but you say there is a ray of light in every soul and might 

I blame you and you and only you for she is perfect. 

Why do you make circumstances so suffocating for me that I have to give up out of respect. 

I believed in you once but now I don't. 

Guess I was born to be raised a Satan 

For everything I love, is taken away from me or forsaken