Failure

I don't know what the life wants from me,

I really don't know what's happening with me.

I don't know how many times I have to face this?

And I really don't know why I have to face this?

I'm really confused that it only happens with me,

Or it's my karma that I have to gone through this.

I don't have the words to describe my situations,

But whatever happening with me only I'm responsible for this.

I'm not blaming anyone here or I don't want blame anyone,

It's my bad luck that I have to face this 'Failure' situations.

When I went on a trip to Kedarnath with my friends,

I spoke many abusing words all the time and that is the results.

My friends told me that don't speak those words but I ignore them,

They tried to motivate me but I had decided that I had to what I want to do.

I'm really a stupid person that I ignored them and continued that thing,

And now this is my karma which haunting me back and I have face this 'Failure'.

I will pray to Lord Mahadeva that please forgive me for my stupidity,

And I will try to become the good person and try to not speak those words.

Because I don't have any courage left to face one more 'Failure' in this life,

And if I had to face the 'Failure' than I'm sorry but I had to take the last step.

Hey, People don't think about that I will commit suicide or will try to harm myself,

But I will think to do something new where I can get success in my life or become successful.

There are many ways where Mahadeva wants me to do and give me that thing what I deserve,

I will try to follow that thing and try to do behave good with everyone means everyone.

Hey, people don't think about that it was just a normal poetry,

I'm the victim what is happening with me for the last 5 months.

Well, there were many things happened or still happening in my life,

But I only want to confess this thing as it depend on 'Karma' and 'Failure'.