Dilemma
Dilemma
I swing wildly between
cynicism and hope
I see beauty
and then the hidden blight
I feel empathy
and then the blame
That lays on the other
I hear love
And then the f-off bitch
echoing in the background
I hold myself back
just enough
From all offers of worship
for
How could I not judge
the depths other can plumb
For I know how far I can fall
This Janus face
prevents uneclipsed happiness
The only consolation
atleast
In the depths of my heart
I do not lie to
Myself.