Black

My heart is black

Let's not put the blame on smog,

That's the least 

Of my worries

It is like engulfing black

With all hatred and anger

Struggling to stay inside

All that fear

Not letting it slide

Sometimes it does glow pink

Some love ❣️ find its way 

And crawls up and I let it sink

A few see courage and 

constantly praise

They are not to blame

For they do not know my heart

It's a black hole

Absorbs all, reflect no more

It camouflages a lot of time

To vile green

Whenever jealousy, insecurity

Captures the scene

Oh I so much wish

To just rub it clean

And paint it with my favourites

A few pastels and 

A dash of cream

Now it knows of my plan 

And so keeps me out

Doesn't let me caress

Hence I doubt

What new colour is it

Planning to add

Isn't it already so bad?

If only I could just peek through

Maybe rewind

To where I falter

When did I let my heart open

For black to enter

When did I embrace

Being indifferent, being selfish

If only I could trace

Even Though right now 

I seldom find hope

I may not be worst of all

I still manage to cope

But I am sure of that

I am not pure as peace

My heart is black

Yes.. definitely black!!