Be Aware (Verbal Abuse)

I have always been ashamed of the way I look

I hated being watched and judged like a book

Exposing myself made me feel bare 

Scarred by my mama's words, drowning me with fear

It felt like I was showing you, my broken soul,

That was covered with thorns and holes

Standing in front of you, showing you all of me

Hoping that when you cast your eyes you would like what you see

I was showing you the vulnerability in my eyes

Letting you know that I really tried not to believe all mothers lies

But her words kept playing over and over in my mind

'You're ugly, you wouldn't be loved, your body is a disgusting sight'

Those words were always on rewind 

So I stand in front of you hoping you won't judge

Hoping that my internal scars are not too much

I'm letting you know that you need some self-care

You need to stop living in fear

Stop letting your mom get inside your head

Stand up for yourself instead

All you need to know is that you don't need to change

You shouldn't be trapped by these chains 

Your heart is filled with gold

That's the one thing that shouldn't be sold