A Negative Thinker

Yaa,I am 'a negative thinker',

'A blind negative thinker',

Who doesn't want to see colours,

Colours of positivity,love and hope,

Who doesn't believe the people,

Or can say doesn't want to believe,

Who doesn't even trust herself,

For doing any work or to achieve something

Negativity is with me since i was a girl,

And now I am not a young girl like I was,

It has flourished within me for years,

And now it has grabbed my mind so tightly,

That positive thoughts don't stay in my mind,

I start worrying about the things and to overthink

I get trapped in a dark net of negative feelings, fears, and despairs,

And can't get out of it till a ray of positive hopes,love enters in it,

Now,i am tired of all these negative thoughts arising in my mind,

And the overthinking of mistakes and memories of past,

Still there's a hope in my negative heart who says,

'At least the blood flowing in me is not negative.'