28 Years
28 Years
Today I grow a year older
With a lot of time behind me
And, perhaps, very few left
I've had many good friends
But lost most to trust
I laughed, I shed my tears
Sometimes alone
At times before people who could bear them
Now I laugh fearfully lest 'they' would see
I want to cry aloud
But fear being called even weaker
Newer people entered my world
They speak, they smile, they love
But today, I fear to trust
I stammer to talk
They call me sensible
They call me strong
I smile trying to feel proud
But feel weaker instead
Silently losing to my own facade
The bearers still bear me
Trying to build my lost hopes and dreams
That I am scared to build again
For as I grow older, I care no more
About hope or dope
I now just count the days