Words can't be said, Letters can't be sent

"The purpose of confession is not always about seeking an answer or explanation but also to avoid any regret in the future."

  Sometimes, I wonder why you have to tell me that. How terrible it was because I know that even if we could turn back time, I would still choose to never tell you about it. I wish you hadn't confessed to me so that I wouldn't speak the words I wasn't supposed to. Call me a coward if you want, but the truth is that moment wasn't the perfect time. However, when I realize that the time is right, you are nowhere to be found.

  That's funny, huh? I just thought that feeling would pass quickly. but even after all these years, these feelings still persist..

  You know what? I'm very envious of you. I wish I had the courage to express my true feelings as well. But, what's the point now? I've already lost you.

  Don't worry; I promise myself that I'm going to be fine. It's just that I just want to say sorry. I'm sorry for not giving you a chance. I lied when I said that I only saw you as a friend. It's just that I don't want to break our friendship and lose you. I thought I made the right decision by keeping you as a friend, but then you started avoiding me, everything felt awkward, and eventually we ended up as strangers. Who would have thought we'd end up like this?

 One day I woke up to find that you were already on someone else's arm. I saw you happy, and I didn't expect that I would feel a pain in my heart. Maybe this is the price I must pay for not telling you the truth. Well, I guess I understand now why you have to tell me that, and made me realize that not all good stories have beautiful endings, just like ours, though there was never an "us".

 I know you're happy now based on what I have seen in your post. You don't also have any regrets because you told me what you were supposed to say. I wish I had also done it so that I never had this strange feeling of what ifs? " But it's probably too late for that. Anyway, I just want to tell you that I'm happy for both of you and I wish you're happiness. For the last time, let me say, "Sorry, thank you, and goodbye.". 

 On the other side, I want to convince myself that I should never regret anything. Seeing how happy you are right now made me realize that. 

 Thank God, we never enter into a relationship only to realize that in the end we have to separate our ways. 

  If there's one thing I could ask for you, maybe it's just to continue to serve God in any way, because it's because of HIM we know each other and I know you are glad to serve HIM too, but this time please do it with your girl and please never let go of her.

  Know that you had once a special place in my heart and I'll always cherish our friendship and the times we had, But don't feel pity on me don't worry,I won't bother you and you would never know this too. Just put your mind and heart at peace, knowing that you have the right person with you

 Now, the time has already come and I've decided to free myself and let you go.You have told me once in my recognition day, which happens to be a day before your graduation, that "congrats and ba-bye". Now allow me to do the same, congrats to both of you, congrats because you already found your other half. And goodbye, goodbye, for this is the last time I will write something about you