A Lies

"Hey, are you okay," asked my friend who was with me, 

"yes", I answered.

I didn't notice that I was out of my mind a little while, I was just standing here, out of the blue, reminiscing this place while staring at the two-person not far from us.

"come here, let's go and sit," said my friend.

I nodded and followed her.

"We have too many memories about this place

A! I forgot, it" I said while arguing myself in my mind. 

I have too many memories about this place, it's only me because I was the only one who remembered. 

Him? I don't think so.

I don't even know if he knows me.

Maybe not, not anymore.

This is it, the same place, the place where we first met, the place where we first know each other. 

The place where we started. 

Then our hearts intertwined, 

We've chatted, we've laughed, we've promised.

But all of sudden, everything has changed, 

Everyone becomes a stranger.

Since then, a situation like this is always what I want to avoid.

I hate when our eyes met.

I hate when our paths will cross.

Because I'm afraid if I found that I was not still over him

And I hate when I have to lie.

I didn't take a risk and he give up!

He stay away and I was left behind.

I thought I was okay 

But I was not

Every time I asked, I lied

I lied when I told myself I don't have a feel for you anymore

I lied when I told you lets stay as friends

I thought I could still pretend... 

I suddenly wake up from my own thoughts when a familiar voice speak to me

"hi! It's been a long time, nice to meet you again! " he said

"Yeah, nice to meet you too!" I smiled as I answered.

 yes, it's him a person who occupied my mind earlier.

"How are you? " he asked

"I'm fine, " I answered surprisingly without any pain in my heart

"good" he replied while smiling

"babe, let's go," said a girl facing toward our direction.

 I just smiled at the girl and give a go signal to him

"Please excuse us, " he said

"no problem",i replied

Then they go away from us.

I don't know, but I'm feeling better now.

It's weird, 

It's something different. I wasn't hurt, I don't feel anything anymore

Maybe, just maybe we met this time again for closure, 

So that I can't do the same lie again. 

After our little conversation, I can assure myself that I can now finally let him go

Things that I've always wanted to avoid are the things that can give me a better feeling too.

For the last time

Let me say this word once again, without pretending

"I don't have any feelings for you anymore"

It's pure and sincere I no longer feel anything

I'm ready to say goodbye

Without tears in my eyes and without any lies.