Scary Dream

Most of the dreams that keep chasing us always, they don't leave us even in our imaginations, we wake up quickly, and those dreams don't let us sleep, while some of them get repeated more often than they get fitted in our memories. 

Well, I've seen many dreams, which have scared me the most, like I've seen deaths of my closed ones, accidents, and others, but the one which I find scariest goes on like this:-

Like every child, I was close to my father who was in army, he came for 1 month in every 2 years and would send messages about his well being, being an officer at top post, he had to perform many duties, and that included focussing on training more than any other kinds of stuff, that was the reason I interacted twice a week that too just for two minutes, and whenever he came for the vacation, I never left him, I stayed by his side, I love him so much that he is the closest person in my life, I can't imagine a single day without thinking about him.

Few days later.. 

We got a letter that dad would be coming to meet us and this time he had a two-month vacation, I danced with happiness as finally, I could see him, and that too for two months, I hugged my mom tightly and went to sleep. I woke up and saw that everything was different, there wasn't any good vibe, I got off my bed to investigate the reason and the moment I saw everything, I was broken into millions, as some soldiers came to inform us that dad is no more with us now, as some attackers attacked their camp in morning when he was packing his stuff, he being the leader took the lead and gave his life for the nation, they further added that he was packing the gifts he bought for us, and he was so happy to come and meet us, he also had a piece of cloth, which reminded him of my mom, and he died holding that, he always carried that cloth with him. I have never seen my mom like that, she was fainting in intervals and cried so hard that as if she wanted to cry her heart out and emit all the pains she had, she screamed and wanted my dad back but God wanted him more than us, that he called him before our happy vacation.

I had mixed emotions, I had no idea to react to the situation, I still couldn't believe my ears but it happened and we have to accept it, many people came to console me but I brushed everyone off me as I didn't want the sympathy or hug, I just wanted my dad to come back, I looked into the sky, it went to the infinity and I calculated that there is no one I can reach and meet him. I now regret those 2 minutes, I now regret neglecting him in my childhood, I now regret everything, I miss him so much that no words, no pain, no cry, no scream can explain the feeling I had, tears slightly rolled down on my cheeks and I had no clue about living without him.

But then he came in my mind and said what if I was alive, I don't want to end your life, my child, I'm always there alive in your heart and I'm always there for you, and suddenly I opened up my eyes and I was asked to perform the rituals, I stayed strong, afterall I was daddy's girl, gave a salute to him and prayed for him to rest in peace, and the moment I turned back, I was broken and the only way I could express my sorrow was to cry, and I burst off very bad, that I was uneasy to be handled, I again looked into the sky and saw my dad saying those words again also he added don't cry my child, it hurts seeing you this way, and I smiled giving him a smile and went back to my home, I took the responsibility of home, took care of my mom, and every day we struggled to forget about the dad, my mom looked at her phone daily to get a call but ended up regretting and slept with tears. 

That was the day and now is the day, I can't sleep remembering what my dad must have gone through, he still comes in my dreams, talks to me, hugs me, protects me and the moment I open my eyes, he leaves me. 

And this the scariest dream I have seen more often and thought of my dad doesn't let me sleep peacefully, I miss you, Dad, I wish I could turn time and bring you back sacrificing my life in return, I love you papa!

Dreams are of two types, some don't let you sleep, while some are the reason you sleep peacefully, in my case, I wait for both of them just to meet my dad, and that's the scariest dream which shows me the dangerous death of my father.