Fear: The Game Must Go On

Fear:-To what we all grow up with. I was young when I got about the concept of fear.

We all have some kind of fear in us,

Some have fear of money

Some have fear or love,

Some with fear of being alone,

Others with fear of getting lost,

Some with fear of death,

Some with fear of mental health.

We all carry a side of fear in us.

I too had, that kind of fear.

Fear of being left.

I was one of those pupil who grows under the love of your family community and friends.

I grew up the same, to what I needed my family was there, to what I wished my friends were there, to what I love the community gave me but over all this no one told me that fear's to stand behind you in every desire just in chance that once the love fades for a while and I get in to the person.

If fear can raise you than it can destroy too.

I was destroyed by the same condition.

My fear was losing the one I love.

Mukta, my child hood friend, my best buddy.

I always loved the way she was, the naughty, the shy, the crazy, the bold, the be yourself type.

I wanted to convey her my feelings but everytime I couldn't gather the words the courage to tell her.

I wanted to tell her, that what she means to me I wanted to tell her she's the support system of my life, I wanted her to know that without her I'm alone.

But when ever we were together and I was about to say her about my feelings I felt blank, I wanted to know what she thinks about me but when I wasn't ready to convey her my feelings how can I expect she would hold first step after all she was a pretty beautiful girl, if any one watches her he/she would have fall for her, and so did I.

Finally one day I decided to tell her everything and right at time she called me and said wanna say something important really important it's about her life and future.

Her these words left me excited I thought she's going to talk about me.

I directly went to the best showroom owned some dresses, in the evening I dressed as attractive I could be I applied her favorite deodorant too. I was super excited. With flowers and a ring in my hand hoping that this time I'll take her with me I drew the car to the estimated place.

And she as usual looked super attractive cherry red gown with golden round earrings, black pencil heels, a watch on her left hand and some bangles in other long hairs with some down curls, upper fringes turning outward and she walking towards me in excitement.

Hi, where were you? I have been waiting so long.

Hi , Mukta actually I was being dressed up so got late. Ah! Here's, these flowers are for you.

Aww! So sweet come let's go I wanna talk really important to you.

Yes sure Mukta, well what exactly were you talking about? I mean is it related to future studies or future wedding?

You guessed right now that's why we are best child buddies, you always get right.

Yes it's about my future wedding.

Ohh great Mukta, so here's one more thing I forgot, wait let me show you.

Here's a ring for my lovely buddy.

Come show me your finger I'll dress you finger with this beautiful ring.

(Holding Mukta's hand)

Mukta, you already have a ring in your ring finger, whose ring is this.

Uff! This was what I actually wanted to speak you about, see turn around that's Vinay, my boyfriend and now my fiance.

Fiance, Mukta do you even know him? how can you be so early for fiance type relationship?

Mukta I think he's a fraud, leave him.

Are you crazy I know him since 5 years, and by that time we have been more than just friends and now he decided to marry me.

Yes, but how can you be so sure what if he uses you, I think he's not a right guy, maybe someone else can keep you happy more than him?

I'm pretty happy with him, and who can care for me better than him.

Me, Mukta me, I'll do, I'll do anything to keep you happy, I'll fill you every need I'll do everything I'll try everything I'll definitely keep you as happy as I can.

Are you out of your mind, have you seen yourself, are you upto what you are saying.

Stop this shit, its frightening me.

I'm true Mukta I love you not from now from my childhood I love you from depth of my heart,.I want to marry you to spend my entire life with you.

Are you idiot or what I know we are best buddy but,, but how can I marry you its impossible.

Nothing's impossible I'll work out on my fault.

Why are you not getting it we can't be one, how can we marry, I'm a girl and you too are a girl only.

Now please leave me and my date otherwise I'll call your mom and tell her everything and before I break my friend ship with you just leave this place.

(After a week )

I saw her house being decorated and she was going to engage with that Vinay.

It hurt me it hurt me a lot that time I decided either she will marry me or no one.

I bought a rat poison and mixed it in juice of Vinay I had no idea that they both will exchange the glass and Mukta would drink the poisoned juice.

I wanted her so I shut myself into room and started to curse me and then I found Mukta seeing me from everywhere I loved her what crime had I done she neglected my love for that Vinay who wasn't enough to keep her happy. It hurt me and broke me also I was in guilt that I killed my love. My child hood love.

I thought to blame Vinay for her death and free myself but I started to here Mukta's voice yelling you killed me.

The window showed her face.

My wardrobe had her face.

My room, table everywhere I could sense her, it started hallucinating my brain my memories and so I decided to kill myself but I'm such coward I couldn't kill me too

Mrs. Shela arrest her, she had gave her statement she is the culprit of Mukta's death free Vinay from the case.

Miss, Nisha loving someone is good but loving beyond limits and with out other's permission is insanity.