Cuz I Fear [#1 You Do Or I Die]

                            *****The Standard Prediction *****

Thinking about the suicide is easy but the outcome I aiming after this is quite hard, very difficult in reality.

The material needed is just a sharp knife but the matter where I need to cut and die with less pain is little hard, also cоmpleх.

I bet, probably, there are several outcomes, in which three are expected to be.

[ Soon, the time rushed and I smashed the knife on the table which was brought recently. ]

[ ALOUD, with the knife near to my pulse on my wrist, I spoke...]

Ok! It's enough Dad, it's even for you Mom. Now, let me speak. You both always worry about you and only about your bloody egos. Not for us, me and for my brother.

You both fight, it's not my problem but not in front of us like monsters,  please go somewhere and do it.

If you both wanted me to be alive, you must not fight again, better you both don't even speak with each other hereafter.

[ Me with eye full of tears]

Dad! You... You just need money right? I know you have lots of loan and you are doing so, for closing the loan. But, I have a question, if you know that, you can't close the loan and it may become a burden to you. Then why you just get it? And pushing us in trouble???

[ With a low pitch voice]
I even know this, you are planning to make a better future for us! For your children!

[ Screaming like a dog in danger ]
But... you don't mind that our present is damaging, it's breaking into pieces that can't be pasted together again, to make a best peice, the best future.

[ With a strong and unbreakable tone ]
You!...Me!...Mom!...Bro!...
We all need, we just need is peaceful eco! Happy life! And lovely family. That's it.Not that bloody money! Money anymore, maybe it will help but the little you earn it's enough, now! For now!!!

[ Trembling a little ] 
And coming to you mom!

Long ago, you had fought with your parents to get dad right?

[with a long pressing in tone]
As they rejected; you came out; then you rejected them, your parents who geeded you! cared about you! For marring your lovely boyfriend, (i.e) Dad... right?

You later found that Dads words are the rules, may be separately done but not be rejected, right?

Then why the f***¿ Even though Dad hated; you always ask to go to your parents home and ask to stay for a week?

[ALOUD] I know, now you are eagerly waiting to get free and needed time to enjoy with your parents and siblings. 

[ASIDE] you are right mom, years are longer to wait but there there live time will be shorter, maybe you note together for this century with this kind of dad.

Also I traced that you are in anger, since the only frame of your parents and siblings had been thrown out by Dad.

Even, you know that the character of Dad will be like that, it will remain like that and can't be changed from that. Why? did you do the same he done. Why you had thrown his parents frame out? And started a civil house war.

I know that you tried to give him the same heart broken feeling in him.

[With a little hesitation]
Did you forget that people are underestimated? They can't be changed if they did not will too, even you push them to be so?

Coming to your eagerness. Can't you see us, we are also your family but you are longing for the one is so far from you.

If you really need them, please wait till our growth. After we enters the job, probably we might not be depended. Then, we must join you to your family.

Till that no Divorce! Did you both understand? 

[ Colapsing words ]
If you both argue with each other, even a bit, remember! a slash is enough; I thinks it's clear that you guys might not have the ability to grow two child.

[ Me, with my trembling mouth, tears flooding out the eyes and shivering body]

Better, atleast grow the second one better.

[ screaming like baby, with the running nose. ]

Will you both do? (Or) I die?

There must be no arguments and fighting hereafter.

I request to throw all the frames out, none of them must remain.

Mom! You can be free, you can talk anything in your phone with anyone. None of them we matter.

Am I right dad? [ Making fun of dad]
You must not ask what she spoke to tell it again or keep a recorder to spy her.

Especially! No sharing with your money.

Mom! Your earnings from talking tuition must be spent in buying groceries and things needed for me and my brother and recovering the jewel kept in mortgage.

And Dad! Your earnings must be spent for our school fees, sport fees, closing loans and for our small entertainments also for little shopping.

[ Dad, staring with terrible eyes and murmuring ]

Little shoppings, right ??? (Dad deep about past in presence)

[ Me, by mattering nothing but with the eagerness to win the play and to rock the life ]

Is that clear? Clear both?

Then, one more...
If you both needed to talk with each other in some case, we will be your communicating device.

Is that Clear? Is that Clear Mom? Also you Dad?

It's will be the last time I ask for,
Will you both do? (Or) I go die?

[ And this all time....parents locked, brother shocked, all minds blocked, me stucked - braining, what to do the next? ]