Chapter -ll🌞 ☀️ A soldier’s deep affection story ☀️

   (Why should I never love an engineering’s girl )
Disclaimer-  " All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real-tpersons, living or dead, is purely coincidental."The author’s do not intend to hurt anyone`s personal beliefs or sentiments by this story. 
About story This is the story of a soldier who is working in defence forces and an engineering girl; how she used him in the name of love to achieve her thrust/need and after things have been done in her favors then how did she leave him alone/dumped him with endless pains.But the last wording of soldier was to her “ सिर्फ प्यार ख़त्म हुआ है जिंदगी नहीं.....” I fall, I Break, I fail but again I will rise , I heal and I overcome.

Moral of the story:-

Life is so precious, please do not invest in wrong people, if you invest your life in wrong people, definitely for their selfishness nature, they breaks you in thousand pieces and torn    you aparts  in small particles and it will take years of years to make you turn back in together and assemble yourself again. It will also take years, to get yourself cured/heal from those thousands of cuts, bleeding you got from the wrong person so keep yourself away from those people ie.if we hit/smash  the mirror once, then it will break into thousand particles/ pieces. To bring that broken mirror return back to previous state.It will be required so many resources, hard work, constant pressure and temperature(flames), Favourable circumstances/lots of effort  etc. Which is not possible.

  ☀️Preface ☀️The writer has seen so many suicide cases after failing in love and extreme steps taken by the individuals and witnessed of so many suicidal incidents in his village/local community/during service period in defence forces too. That’s why he decided to write the same, if it’s help any individual to recover from such a traumatic depression, keep them alive and motivate to take care of  their family as well as dears. Because individual don’t know, how would your family feel with endless strains and suffered after such shocking incident ei. Suicide.In this story the boy take care of a girl in every aspects and wait for her 10 years but she didn’t think about 10 second before dumping him. He paid for her coaching/ college/ lodging/dresses etc. other expenses  and take care of her since 10 year but still she dumped him to make her life easier with showmanship. She also visited to boy’s house several time with him and had cordial relations with his parents/relatives too, even her friend circle/ everyone knows about their relationship but still she left him; anyone could imagine, how would he feel at that time. peoples were laughing on him and his family; how could he manage all that? only he knows. The things, he had suffered for that crime, he didn’t commit. It was storms/blunder for him but he conquered, that’s called life cycles (up and down). Now he is very happy with his family and share a great bond with family.☀️One of Shimpy’s friend told him - sir, the things you had been doing for her since 10 year; even her family didn’t do, still she is leaving you. She is doing biggest mistake of her life and not realizing too.☀️The boy told Shimpy’s friend:- In last call; Shimpy said-My father is searching PCS officer for me; you have taken VRS from forces and going to be unemployed. I am fair enough and look at your skin/colour. Ashish just replied: did you mind colour bar issue ever before? ☀️Shimpy said to Ashish- I will return all your amount, which you had spend on me since 10 year” and Ashish just asked her- could you able to return my beliefs/trust/love/care/affection/sacrifices etc. for you; the amount I spend on you, that was for your self identity in the world/society and for become an inspiration to others, I know we were in distance relationship but you never felt my love. You might get crorepati’s house after marriage but how could you face yourself in front of mirror; do you know? you are corrupted internally and morally. ☀️The boy is still waiting for his amount which to be returned by her. Ashish knows, she will never return his money.☀️After few month, she married to an assistant resident engineer (name was SK), who was working in her limited company and was 🤭partially handicap with right leg and without toe with adjacent fingers too( more than 40% disability as per handicap certificate) .At his adolescent age SK met with an accident while driving bike on that his right side of body completely collapsed including right side of face too.🤭.SK’s skin/face was much more darker than Ashish, with SK’s face matrix- anyone could assess -easily and SK has obesity issue too, still she/ Shimpy’s family chosen SK as  groom; Ashish was wheatish brown too but he had dimple on his cheeks both side/ face matrix was quite good and Ashish’s smile was pretty attractive. Ashish just laughed on himself after hearing above, to whom he had loved Since 10 year. because the groom(SK) already knows- Ashish and Shimpy  had have close relationships since 10 year. being a friend of Shimpy- it was SK’s responsibility to help Shimpy get her love either anything goes wrong  or solve the issue of her love life but SK play the game against Ashish  to get the Shimpy only, basically that’s difference between a Fauji and civilized social person ei. Selfishness.In forces there is punch line  always taught to soldiers : don’t trust anybody and trust your buddy’s more than your own body. Ashish trusted shimpy but she choosen someone else. While Ashish was waiting for her since 10 year’s ; everyone warned him ei. You are doing for her beyond your capacity but remembered when you needed  her more than anything then she definitely dumped you. But Ashish didn’t listen anyone’s advice , he was in such phase that he  was trusted  shimpy more than his own.but after 10 year’s of his long relationship Ashish understand he was wrong because shimpy dump him brutally .☀️☀️After all; Ashish understood, that was not marriage, it was deal of money/ wealth( there was no room for emotions/sacred institutions of marriage).But money minded business of Shimpy and SK only. Hopefully, time and God will teach them true lesson of life.
 After this incident obviously, the boy was shocked and couldn’t able to think - what to do? But his upbringing and extreme working environments/ defence’s trainings/working scenario/ rescue experiences during service, keep him alive and he recovered from that traumatic depressive situation.Hopefully this wonderful story will help individual to recover from love failure and realized them to avoid such heinous crime ei. Suicide.

  CHAPTER - II

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Ashish went somewhere in gulf of Hormuz for anti -piracy operations just after few days  Shimpy’s visit her home. It was just like a routine for Ashish to chat with Shimpy everyday but Shimpy was at her home and Ashish was on his deployment abroad.Ashish knows - he is in onboard-ship and there is no network at mid-sea,shimpy too couldn’t reply his messages but still Ashish keep sending messages to her of his feelings just like love birds. Ashish knows the gravity of secrecy of ship’s operation so he never ever wrote anything about his/ ship’s movement, work culture etc. to neither Shimpy even nor his parents too, Ashish keep writing everyday to Shimpy whenever he got time after duties. Shimpy was at home too enjoying the her precious vacation with her family and her nephew Abhinandan; she also send a lot of photos ,videos of Abhinandan playing with her to Ashish by using her sister in law cellphone through Facebook. Shimpy send one of most funny videos of Abhinandan , in that video Abhinandan was trying to tie a calf (so innocently). After few days BTE result was announced and Shimpy was cleared her first year exam, she was very happy of her performance in first year exam , she scored 76%;her parents was happy too with daughter achievement; now she started to believe in herself ei. She could achieve the desired goal of her life. 

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Shimpy was very excited to disclosed her first year result with Ashish but Ashish was on transit to somewhere in Red Sea so neither Ashish could see the messages of Shimpy nor Shimpy could see Ashish’s text messages.Shimpy also used to send lot of messages to Ashish from her Facebook’s account by using her nephew Abhinandan’s mother cellphone.      

After first year vacation, Shimpy returned to her room at Govt polytechnic to attend  second year classes. Shimpy also got her first year scholarship.She has paid her second year fee with scholarship amount and  she was wanting to return the remaining part of her scholarship amount to Ashish.After thinking about many things, she decided , she would give maximum amount of her scholarship to Ashish because Ashish had funded her previous year’s coaching fee and all stuff. She has written a message to Ashish regarding her willingness ei. She wants to return the maximum part of her scholarship amount to Ashish and thank him for his support even when she was facing negativity/ exam’s fear during her first year’s exam.her roommate promoted in second year too with back-paper in 02 subject. Shimpy cleared her first year without back-papers so she was very much exited about her result and confident too for second Year. Shimpy was very much eager to discuss her result with Ashish too but unfortunately Ashish couldn’t see her messages in chat box.Ashish was deployed for counter insurgency operation in somewhere Iraq- Iran border (Gulf of Hormuz).

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After completion of deployment successfully at foreign soil, finally On intercom ship’s commanding officer announced that ship got a signal from WarRoom ( Delhi ) to come back at parent Port and defence force’s sending a sister vessel to relieve us . we shall soon touched the soil of motherland. We shall meet our families, A departmental get together/ Picnic will be organised for ship’s company including families too where we all - taste the fresh food & fruits after long time to counter the sea sickness/ home sickness etc. ; we shall assumed 01 day Sunday routine for ship’s married crew to spend quality time with their family to strengthen their mental health. Ashish was happy too ei. Now he can send all unsend messages from his Facebook account to Shimpy which were written by him during Gulf patrolling. The ship’s journey started at midnight after handing taking over has been done with relieving sister vessel (Destroyer).It was approximately 48 hours journey from ship’s relieving point at Red Sea  to ship’s parent port in India. During said journey Ashish imagine so many ways to speak with Shimpy when she will asked about of his deployment/ nature of work etc. Ashish never said to Shimpy- anything about his job at Warship , sometimes Shimpy was asked him too of his work at onboard but Ashish always said I am the man in uniform (soldier) taking order from command and execute in same manner as Command is expected from me.

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Finally Ashish reach at shore and touched the Indian soil , After shutting of all running machines, systems and equipments onboard except those which are needed to run at jetty .Attend the commanding officer briefing which is necessary to participate all ship’s crew except those on essential duties. Ashesh kept his phone at his cabin’s port hole side so that mobile could access tower signal and send his all heartily messages to Shimpy. During briefing of command Ashish was thinking about the messages which were written by him to Shimpy of his feelings and experiences he got there during deployment. Finally briefing was over and command allowed to crew for disperse from meeting point and married crew allowed to visit their home. Some crew’s family already came to jetty to receive them. It was exited feeling for them. Finally Ashish seen the messages send by Shimpy. Her messages clearly expressed her excitement after clearing of her first year exam and happiness of her family too. Shimpy send her thankful notes to Ashish for his moral support . She also mentioned Ashish  for his commitment during preparation of her first year exam.After seeing Shimpy’s messages - Ashish became emotional and had tears of happiness in his eyes . Ashish also use to send messages to Shimpy for her dedication and hard work to clear her first year exam and making her parents proud on her.

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Now Shimpy was attending the class of second year and this year Shimpy willing to make her best too. When shimpy was in the second year, she wanted to clear second year with good marks this time too as she did in first year without back-paper & grace mark. Ashish told Shimpy for high school passsed students who attended the polytechnic mathematic is like a ghost subject, mathematic is the backbone of every subject too and in second year there is an applied mathematic which is very tricky and if you understand the mathematic then you will clear the second year too with good mark; if there is a back paper in mathematic, it’s very tough to clear , l had seen many of our seniors who  were completed his diploma come here in hostel to attend the back paper in applied mathematic and stay in hostel , they used to say the same thing’s which I am telling you . If you good in mathematic means you clear the polytechnic so that I am suggesting you to attend the coaching class of mathematic and give extra potential and time to mathematic so that you will hold on that. Ashish also said her - kept herself socially connected with classmates, basically those have helping nature without any expectations specifically girls of her class.while listening to Ashish Shimpy suggested/ motivated her friends too for coaching of mathematic and her girl’s gang attended the coaching classes of mathematic too. 

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There was a student whose name was Pawan , who was failed in second year of his exam and now with Shimpy ; He also doing coaching classes with Shimpy and sometimes he used to ask doubts with her inside class as well as in coaching too , initially Shimpy was hesitating with him and kept herself to avoiding him. While Pawan seeing Shimpy is not resisting him, he soon got confident and sometimes he used to scolded her . she discussed this matter to Ashish too “how to tackle him ?“ now he got that much confidence ei. chased me till my locality. Shimpy told Ashish : I am here to clear my course, my parents has eyes on me , so that I could do in my life to clear all of burden of my family and I don’t want to be with him , he is very rude and  I have seen him fighting with juniors inside class many times; Shimpy urged Ashish very emotionally : whenever I saw him - being afraid/ jolted. He used to propose me for being together and I denied, still he is not listen.

Basically Pawan would like to keep himself busy with her and wanted to spend more and more time with her. Now,Pawan start asking questions and daily notes of coaching and classroom from shimpy, Being a junior to him, shimpy did not want to refuse him straight away and start kept herself away from him.Once she messaged to Ashish , Pawan misbehave with her and forcing her to accept his proposal/ he talked very rudely and arrogantly with her. The same day Pawan followed Gudiya till her room from her coaching class in evening and tried to stop her in street but he did not succeed.That day shimpy was very afraid and scared, how to handle the Pawan? 

At night during chatting with Ashish she told the incident and started crying and said - I don’t know, how to get out of this situation?

The boy made shimpy comfortable first and then make understand to her; don’t be scared and messaged her :-

Dear Shimpy do you know?

a) The source of power for all human beings ei. Maa Durga.

b) The source of knowledge ei. Maa Saraswati.

c) The source of wealth is Maa Laxmi etc...

Basically we are as human being get everything from mother goddess and you have all goddesses within yourself so know your power and strength. So many things had been discussed between both of them, how to tackle the situation and make understandable to Pawan.

After all this, Ashish said to shimpy , you are strong and courageous, don’t afraid to anyone, just listen to her heart . You are not doing anything wrong then why are you feeling bad ? he is doing wrong so he should be punished for his actions/ crime which is he committed with you.You must show him your real face, how much strong you are inside ? Pawan is not powerful than you and will never be, he is coward that’s why he is chasing you, real man respect women and girls dignity.

After all this she was so glad and happy to know her hidden power and she told to Ashish, tomorrow I shall directly refuse his proposal on his face and if he will not be understand then will threaten him -I shall logged a complain against you in front of principal and you will loosen your sessional marks as well as this year too.

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Next day after coaching class, shimpy explained the same, which was she discussed with Ashish last night to Pawan with confidence and courage. Pawan never expected, shimpy will act like above.

Pawan said sorry to her and requested her, please don’t disclose anything to principal/Teachers. He is already very much tense about his future and upcoming exams, he is weak student in 2-3 subjects , that’s why last year not able to clear the exam.In the classroom too none of students are liking me so whoom I would clear my doubts, If you dont mind; could taught me the same subjects during lunch/ spare time of class so it shall be beneficial to me and clear the exam this year. It will help you too for your revision.Pawan told shimpy, this is my humble request and please consider the same. 

The same things Shimpy messaged to Ashish during late night chatting and Ashish said shimpy , it will be pleasure for you, being a human, it’s our responsibility to help every individual and suggested her - go ahead. Shimpy again messaged to Ashish- I never seen anyone like you, how much , you have faith/ believe on me and explained the relationship of her bestie and boyfriend, how her bestie’s boyfriend had mistrust on her and not allowed her to speak anyone in class specially boys.

To be continued….