A soldier's deep affection story ☀️☀️

                   (Why should I never love an engineering's girl )

Disclaimer- 

 " All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real-persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental."

The author's do not intend to hurt anyone`s personal beliefs or sentiments by this story. 

About story 

This is the story of a soldier who is working in defence forces and an engineering girl; how she used him in the name of love to achieve her thrust/need and after things have been done in her favors then how did she leave him alone/dumped him with endless pains.

But the last wording of soldier was to her " सिर्फ प्यार ख़त्म हुआ है जिंदगी नहीं....." I fall, I Break, I fail but again I will rise , I heal and I overcome.

Moral of the story:-

Life is so precious, please do not invest in wrong people, if you invest your life in wrong people, definitely for their selfishness nature, they breaks you in thousand pieces and torn    you aparts  in small particles and it will take years of years to make you turn back in together and assemble yourself again. It will also take years, to get yourself cured/heal from those thousands of cuts, bleeding you got from the wrong person so keep yourself away from those people ie.if we hit/smash  the mirror once, then it will break into thousand particles/ pieces. To bring that broken mirror return back to previous state.It will be required so many resources, hard work, constant pressure and temperature(flames), Favourable circumstances/lots of effort  etc. Which is not possible.

 

 ☀️Preface ☀️

The writer has seen so many suicide cases after failing in love and extreme steps taken by the individuals and witnessed of so many suicidal incidents in his village/local community/during service period in defence forces too. That's why he decided to write the same, if it's help any individual to recover from such a traumatic depression, keep them alive and motivate to take care of  their family as well as dears. Because individual don't know, how would your family feel with endless strains and suffered after such shocking incident ei. Suicide.

In this story the boy take care of a girl in every aspects and wait for her 10 years but she didn't think about 10 second before dumping him. He paid for her coaching/ college/ lodging/dresses etc. other expenses  and take care of her since 10 year but still she dumped him to make her life easier with showmanship. She also visited to boy's house several time with him and had cordial relations with his parents/relatives too, even her friend circle/ everyone knows about their relationship but still she left him; anyone could imagine, how would he feel at that time. peoples were laughing on him and his family; how could he manage all that? only he knows. The things, he had suffered for that crime, he didn't commit. It was storms/blunder for him but he conquered, that's called life cycles (up and down). Now he is very happy with his family and share a great bond with family.

☀️One of Shimpy's friend told him - sir, the things you had been doing for her since 10 year; even her family didn't do, still she is leaving you. She is doing biggest mistake of her life and not realizing too.

☀️The boy told Shimpy's friend:- In last call; Shimpy said-My father is searching PCS officer for me; you have taken VRS from forces and going to be unemployed. I am fair enough and look at your skin/colour. Ashish just replied: did you mind colour bar issue ever before? 

☀️Shimpy said to Ashish- I will return all your amount, which you had spend on me since 10 year" and Ashish just asked her- could you able to return my beliefs/trust/love/care/affection/sacrifices etc. for you; the amount I spend on you, that was for your self identity in the world/society and for become an inspiration to others, I know we were in distance relationship but you never felt my love. You might get crorepati's house after marriage but how could you face yourself in front of mirror; do you know? you are corrupted internally and morally. 

☀️The boy is still waiting for his amount which to be returned by her. Ashish knows, she will never return his money.

☀️After few month, she married to an assistant resident engineer (name was SK), who was working in her limited company and was 🤭partially handicap with right leg and without toe with adjacent fingers too.🤭.SK's skin/face was much more darker than Ashish, with SK's face matrix- anyone could assess -easily and SK has obesity issue too, still she/ Shimpy's family chosen SK as  groom; Ashish was wheatish brown too but he had dimple on his cheeks both side/ face matrix was quite good and Ashish's smile was pretty attractive. Ashish just laughed on himself after hearing above, to whom he had loved Since 10 year. because the groom(SK) already knows- Ashish and Shimpy  had have close relationships since 10 year. being a friend of Shimpy- it was SK's responsibility to help Shimpy get her love either anything goes wrong  or solve the issue of her love life but SK play the game against Ashish  to get the Shimpy only, basically that's difference between a Fauji and civilized social person ei. Selfishness.

☀️☀️After all; Ashish understood, that was not marriage, it was deal of money/ wealth( there was no room for emotions/sacred institutions of marriage).But money minded business of Shimpy and SK only. Hopefully, time and God will teach them true lesson of life.

 After this incident obviously, the boy was shocked and couldn't able to think - what to do? But his upbringing and extreme working environments/ defence's trainings/working scenario/ rescue experiences during service, keep him alive and he recovered from that traumatic depressive situation.

Hopefully this wonderful story will help individual to recover from love failure and realized them to avoid such heinous crime ei. Suicide.

                 CHAPTER - I

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This story was started, when a boy (with the name of Ashish) who has been completed his professional training in Indian Navy and got first appointment on-board warship. Due to hard working conditions and without social life; after sometime Ashish feel loneliness and emotionally unstable, so he started using social site to keep himself socially connected with peoples/ friends ei. Facebook to avoid the home sicknesses. On Facebook, he had seen a girl with the name of Shimpy Yadav and she was the student of diploma in civil engineering and studying in the same collage where Ashish was enrolled/attended 5 year before. Shimpy and Ashish have been friend to each other on Facebook through one of his mutual friend.

After sometimes, Ashish and Shimpy started  chatting with each other over Facebook. while chatting; Ashish felt that, Shimpy is very much afraid and scared about her future and highly stressed. while chatting Shimpy explained about herself ei. She is belongs to lower middle class family and she has responsibilities of her three younger and her father is just a farmer and doing farming's only.

Basically Ashish  was also belongs to a poor family background so he could easily understand/feel the stress and overburdening on her. She was very much eager to support her family after completion of diploma. Ashish told Shimpy- how much he loves to book and reading but due to poor conditions of his family, he had left  his studies incomplete and joined the defence forces ( Indian Navy) to support family economically. They started chatting to each other's oftentimes and Ashish started to motivate the Shimpy and gives strength/courage while chatting on Facebook to her for studying/readings.

During chatting they start to discussed their family background/ favorite things/ competitive exams etc.

After some time Shimpy messaged- The smartphone she is using while chatting, belongs to her roommate. she is not having a smartphone, that's why it take time to answer your messages.

In-between the boy went to abroad (some where in African continent) for 6-7 months on rescue operations/some operational commitments . Where Ashish was not able to check Shimpy's  messages frequently but  after every 15-20 days; when he got internet connection/ cyber café anywhere, he used to open his Facebook account firstly to check her messages and He got so many messages in his Facebook 📨 inbox from her and just answered  "I am fine, doing great, see you very soon". Being the defence personal if you are on a mission then not allowed to disclose you identity anywhere/sometimes not use any phone calls/ no communication to anyone for maintain the secrecy of mission.

Almost 4-5 months has been gone there, Ashish started feeling that  something was not going well and he would like to come back home/ feel homesickness very eagerly. One of his experienced senior told him- you are in very young age right now and adopting this environment will take time and advice him to go and get counselled by concert authority. Ashish said to concert authority "how he feel homeless and want to go back" during counselling he also discussed about the Shimpy's messages and urged! to provide internet access for him so he could even read her messages. After the counselling, Ashish got some liberties to move outside once in two weeks and he has to move outside in very professional manner so no one could recognized him.

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After few days, Ashish got a message from Shimpy's account, that was worrying him about her wellness and mental health. Ashish thoughts, how did she focus on her study if such things happen to her.

The message of Shimpy's, itself explains how did she torture by her roommate for silly issues/using of roommate's smartphone etc. and want to shift the room with another's one because her roommate start quarrelling on small - small issues. she messaged Ashish; how did she concentrate on her study if roommate playing big bluff with she. Shimpy's wrote to Ashish with sadness and want to recover from this regret situation and described her pain to Ashish through messages "I just join the diploma after passing the high school and the syllabus is so vast. I am already afraid, how could I complete the syllabus and get good score in first years final term examination" .Roommate is harassing me on silliness issues/senseless actions.

Ashish also completed his diploma after high school so he could easily understand the dilemma/ fears of Shimpy and just Suggested her avoid arguing with roommate as much as you can and focus on study only. It's a crucial time period for you and your future is depend on the same. She start crying and said now I shall not be able to message you because me not in the position of smartphone and your messages give me strength and confidence on self. After few moments; Shimpy start explaining her painful emotions/ sentiments to Ashish, how she is waiting for his messages and when your messages not to come in inbox within 3-5 days, how much I worried about your well-being and how much I feel relaxed and calm by reading your old messages. While reading the old messages, I often feel something imaginative and it's make smile on my face "basically I found myself lost somewhere and that things make myself happy." They discussed so many thing that day to each other over Facebook. Ashish also expressed his hard working environment and how he is surrounded by ruthlessly blood shed/ risks. Ashish urge to Shimpy, please  don't tell anything to anyone about me and about my identity/ location because I am not authorized to use social networking site. While speaking to Shimpy, Ashish also feel joy and mentally relaxed and forget his all burdened/ working pressure. Both were feel great pleasures and focused after talking to each other and they started to becoming each other strength, courage and reveille their all stresses to start a fresh. 

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Next day early morning he got a message from Shimpy that she is not willing to live with her further as roommate  because roommate was behaving so rudely and treating as a servant to Shimpy. Ashish suggested her , please don't be in hurry. She is your friend and she will be forever....so sit-together and discuss the issue with her peacefully and resolve the matter. Don't go with stressed and keep yourself calm. Every students come from different different places and share a room without knowing each other so it is not easy to them adjust/ accommodate each other in such a short period. You might be give at least, your roommate a chance and time. Ashish suggested Shimpy- speak with her without arguing and definitely "you will see; she will be your best friend forever, it's my personal experience; with whom you meet first time in college, most of the time~ she will be your best friend forever said by Ashish. You are brave and intelligent girl, you make yourself that much strong therefore you could able to handle any situation with smile. You are there for study, not for fighting. After approximately a half day of conversation, she feel relaxed and decided to discuss the same with roommate, why she is behaving like that. At the same day in evening she discussed the matter with her roommate as per their plan. 

She told her roommate -

A) If you are not willing to do sweeping and mopping in early morning; don't worry I shall do.

B) For preparing breakfast and dinner if you have an issue, we shall discussed to kill the same, I shall prepare the food for both of us and you just cleaned the dishes.

Anything else you want to discussed please let me know.

Hearing such things from Shimpy; she became overwhelm and Shimpy's words had profound impact on her.

Then Shimpy's roommate disclosed why she feel anger on her -

She told Shimpy:- in college her classmates spread a rumors' that myself is talking on phone with a boy at late night. The boy was her classmate. You are my roommate, only you would know all this things. The class's girls are making comments on me therefore I thought you are jealous of me so spreading all these among classmates.

At that time Shimpy shown sincereness/maturity and told her roommate, this is not a big issue/this is your personal matter. Why would I do all this and believe on me- I have not said anything to anyone regarding you and your personal matter.

Shimpy suggested to her roommate - We shall talk tomorrow in classroom among girls and find out the responsible one.

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 On Leisure/ liberty time Ashish always used to go near by net surfing zone/shopping malls so where he could easily access the wi-fi and give the advisable/befitting reply to Shimpy's messages. Both loved to spend more and more time with each-other over Facebook chatting, that was the new experiences and awesome feelings for both of them. After few weeks; Ashish moved to somewhere in Atlantic Ocean from African continent, There both were facing adjustment of time differences of separate time zones. Shimpy lived in India and Ashish was in Europe but Ashish and Shimpy were manage the time slots and synchronized each other's. At late night chatting, she discussed the same with the boy and wordings of her messages in inbox clearly  shown the happiness and satisfaction. She was too happy because she intact her relationship with roommate, they start sharing great bonding and clear the all doubts/differences between themselves.

She was use word "thanks" several/ many times to Ashish in her messages for his suggestions and guidance to saved the relationship from breaking-up; that day they chat continuously till three o'clock early morning.

After few days she messaged that she  will not be able to chat with him in late night because her roommate most of the time using her smartphone to conversation with friend. There is a computer class everyday in college now a days - so we can chat during computer class. But problem was the synchronization of time for both of them. The working hours for the boy was started early morning at 0530 hrs. and he had to work daily for 10-12 hours continuously excluding the additional  duties. With the hard working environment and extended working hours he had not have enough time to synchronized with her for timings. Therefore both decided they will drop the messages during their spare time and reply back with suited one. They used to wait for the messages and replied back every day. that was awesome feeling they had for the same.  Maximum time she drop the messages during her computer classes from the college's computer and the boy was adhere to see her messages therefore he used to manage himself most of time to read her messages at same time if he was on jetty's/Port while using Wi-Fi and replied back. When ship was at port then the Wi-Fi router provided by respective embassy for ship's employees. There was a free Wi-Fi zone on-board to avoid remoteness/ isolation of sailors who touched the foreign port after completing long patrolling/exercises/rescue operations for food and fuel. some times, due to extreme Working pressure and extended working hours he was not able to do the reply of Shimpy's messages.

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During the simulated war exercise with foreign Navies, Ashish learned so many things about value of life and human culture. He seen so many things that he had never thought too. After continued sea-sorties of 10-15 days for exercises with different country's Navies , Ashish's war ship  used to arrived alongside sea port for rationing (fresh food items/ fuel).Rationing was 1-4 days job, depending upon cities and embassy initiatives and within that time period, the ship's crewmen got a privilege for surfing the city as well as interact with citizens too. Some time, they got opportunities to meet with NRI's and interactions with them. Sometimes NRI's organized a party for the ship's crew and share their thoughts and valuable feedback, how they feel after leaving own country and how they are still rooted with their own culture/ traditions/ moral value/ civilization. It was awesome feeling for Ashish. Sometimes; Ashish used to disclose the above with Shimpy ei. interactions of people's.

⚔️One of the recent incident Ashish disclosed with Shimpy- when he was in African continent, the ship's crew were on trip tour of the city which was organized by the Indian embassy. During visitation of city, the ship's crew heard fire alarm from a near by shopping mall. The city's fire fighting team reached at location to extinguished the fire but the strength (man power) of the team member were very less and fire was spreading in multiple directions so the ship's crew decided to help fire fighting team to extinguish the fire;  Among all ships crew; most of them were well trained fire fighters professionals and had command on their profession too, Ashish was technical soldier and from engineering background, the engineering soldiers are recognized as best because of their hard working culture and machinery handling techniques. so most of ship's crew helped fire fighters to hold and support the fire hoses/ hydrant/Mixing of AFPPF solution with water to extinguished the fire within stipulated time by using maximum man power while working together and stop the fire for spreading. Ashish started to support grounds crew for charging compressed air to fire fighter's breathing apparatus. Most of the ships Crew were working together on the guidance/instructions of fire fighters and they extinguished the fire in professional manner, they save the lives too and evacuated the people without any casualty. 

Ashish said Shimpy- it was awesome feeling when the survivors praised our work/efforts to save their lives, some are hugged us and was started crying with emotions. That time really I feel, our life created by god to save lives of other and really that was proudest moment of mine, next days, the local newspaper also praised the work of Indian soldiers in their news. 

while reading this Shimpy said-you people knew swim too; Ashish said-"yes", it's mandatory for us to swim at least 150 metre and floats for minimum 5 minutes as per service rule and I was non swimmer when recruited but now I am good swimmer too and can swim till 4-5 km easily. I have done sea swimming competitions of 4.2 km and floating of 1.5 hours. It was maximum, that I had  explored myself/my stamina. 

Shimpy was surprised, how could you do that and shared one of her incident of childhood- when she came to her nearby canal for swimming in the age of 9-10 years and while swimming how she faced a hydrophobic situation and till now she is afraid too with water and while remembering that incident, had feared too.

Ashish message Shimpy: it was 3-4 month,  he has taken to learn swimming and he performed/ participant in triathlon( Ironman trophy) too during his training period. from there, he got the  capabilities and confident over swimming.

Ashish message Shimpy- Do you know, when you save life of others, there will be a different type of satisfaction/delight/ peacefulness in your mind which you never felt by any other means, let it be anything. It's just another level of feelings/emotions which could feel by the life savior only.

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After a week, Shimpy dropped message to Ashish's inbox on Facebook regarding the responsible one "who was spreading the rumours about her roommate  and roommate's boyfriend" in the classroom.As she described the incident to Ashish about the above- 

Shimpy's roommate name was Anjoo Yadav and she was the student of diploma first year mechanical engineering. There is small doubt/hesitance with maximum one, If you are girl then mechanical engineering is not righteous choice for you due to its hard working nature so there was only one (Anjoo yadav) choosen mechanical and She was the only girl in class of 60 student. 

In Shimpy's class (Civil engineering); there are total 11 girls among 60 student. Being  a girl,Apsaa was most of the time act as constrained/reserved during classes but after few month in class; started to feel that, she would have to share/study with classmates for practical's files/class's notes etc.So Anjoo used to interact with classmates to share study materials/ practical notes/ doubt regarding subjects/ questions etc.There was a student (name was Brijesh), who was in caring nature to Anjoo. So they exchanged the contact number and started chatting with each other over Facebook.

After few days, Brijesh and Anjoo come closer to each other day by day but an unfortunate incident that make them untrusted to each other. That one narrates by the Shimpy to Ashish :-

 In that incident Brijesh used to chat with another girl, who were in different stream of engineering and she belonged to same class. During chats Brijesh send his personal chats (chatting with Apsaa) to another girl and spoken exaggeratedly to her, about their relationship and during chats Brijesh said so many things which were not committed between them ever.Brijesh told that girl, we are in very close relationship and plan to get together forever and so many things......

The girl spread same things among her friend's circle and gradually everyone would have come to know about the relationship between them.

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After hearing all, Anjoo was very angry on Brijesh and decided not/never spoken with him again, clearly mentioned him as friend only in front of whole class.Anjoo's boyfriend asked her what about the commitments/ promises which were given by you to me from time to time, she did not reply for the same and left the class in anger. whereas Shimpy was student of civil engineering and her roommate belongs to mechanical engineering.so their classrooms were on different floor and the incident took place in the workshop class. 

Next day Shimpy messaged to Ashish and described, all about whole incident had taken place yesterday in Anjoo's class room and after this tragedic incident her roommate was feeling so embarrassed and upset.

Anjoo told Shimpy; do you aware about all the things? which had been done yesterday by Brijesh in classroom.

Shimpy said to Anjoo: don't take things granted and too much seriously, we are here for study only and we have to make our parents proud by scoring  good marks in final exams so avoid all distractions and focus on your's goal only.

Shimpy message Ashish:  I have been used same words from your's messages, the motivational words,you are used most of the times to inspired/ encouraged me about my destiny. Shimpy mentioning Anjoo with motivational words which was keep her relaxed from such a ruthless situation/ embarrassing moments which was faced by Anjoo in such a small/immature age.

Anjoo told Shimpy: even I never imagined/couldn't think, the things would be changed in such a manner, you will be becoming a joke for others and people's are start to set an example of yours as a sample.But Shimpy keep saying her, avoid all such issue and looked/moved forward.After hearing all and approximate 2 hours motivational session of Shimpy, Anjoo feel good and make her mind to  keep herself more energetic/ dynamic.

After hearing above from Shimpy: Ashish gives recommendations to Shimpy, you done a very tremendous/ commendable job to make someone feel confident and better. Basically It's responsibility of every roommates to take care of each-other and motivate each other's for their desire, you done it in professional manner; Good work, please keep it up. 

After Hearing these words from Ashish:

Shimpy was happy too because she make smile on her roommate's face .

Anjoo told Shimpy after cooling down: either we assumed that me and Brijesh did something, it was on our mutual understanding, why he was disclosed all things to another person? to whoom we never trust and that girl spread roomers to  everyone in college/classrooms about our relationship and all other exaggeration/ imaginary things.

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After that, Shimpy and Ashish started to share personal things too with each other. Their bonding continues to grow stronger and dependable.In the midst of all this incident- Ashish and Shimpy love to spend time together on Facebook and messaged to understand the feelings of each other's for each of them; almost six month had been gone talking to each other on social platform but neither Ashish nor Shimpy expressed their feelings, love and affection to each other. they were just feel shy and hesitate to express their feeling but both knows everything ei. they are liking each other's and moving closer towards each other day by day/ moment by moment and this will lead them for further togetherness but both of them never said anything to each other regarding their heartily feel.If they were not able to received the messages in inbox their heart would become restless and started pounding.

After that Ashish again assigned for some operational requirement and went for sea-sorties with foreign Navies warships for 15 days at war exercises but the actual problems was no network zone and no messages between them, Again same issue, no communication/nothing and there was no instrument to be the medium for them of communication to share each other's feelings. It was horrible moments for both of them. During exercises, most of the time Ashish was closed up at action/ war stations to deal with any mock war's situations/ machinery's failure due to mock drills/mock missile attacks etc. Ashish has the responsibility of much more important things on his shoulders in very young age and always he tried to give his best to deal with  any mock breakdowns/failures.There was very much busy scheduled during exercises, if a mock drills was other, It was instructions from command to every individual will be prompt/combat ready always to meet/ deal any uncertain mock attack/drills/ trials/medical emergencies/rescues of war affected hostages/simulated war between two forces etc. Even every act's/ work's were given counted time slot; if you missed the time means you missed the action too ei. You have finished your food/daily routines etc. within given time periods. sometimes during you daily activities, war exercises were conducted to checking the endurance/promptness of soldiers by command. It instructed too, for exercises you had to leave rest all and closed up at your given war station zone, from where you could do your assigned charter of duty and it's your responsibility to be there till the exercises were not over. That was the proudest/ exhausting/ adventurous moment for Ashish, the things he has experienced first time and he learned a lot with seniors/ foreigner's colleagues etc.It was first time when Ashish felt/seen the actual war scenarios and that was horrific moments, he feel and easily understand that if actually war has begun, what will be circumstances/mentally pressures/physical efficacy? The experience of simulates war/reality  couldn't  be written. Neither Ashish nor anyone can explained that psychological impact on individuals, it's only could be live/experienced but not to be explained.

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Here Shimpy also facing the same issue of sadness/boredom because she loves to chat with Ashish everyday before going to bed at night and early morning just after wokenup if not able to seen Ashish's messages then she was start complaining to him, why didn't you send wellness of mine through messages. Basically, Ashish had the habit for Shimpy, if till the time Shimpy was not slept, Ashish never slept too and when he put Shimpy to sleep then Ashish dropped some messages for her well being and guided her for some exercises to do in early morning whenever she woken up. Looking at Shimpy's sad face; Sometimes, Shimpy's classmates were asked her, is everything good with you? Because we felt that you are not cooperating with us like before you were and your behaviour also changed, you are keeping yourself away from us/ alone, we seen so many times you were dreaming/thinking of something/not charming on your face. Is everything all right? but she was not explained anything to them because she knows they start roistering her in classes, they did even before with her roommate's:; that's why, she didn't disclose anything to anyone and do wait for Ashish messages and if feel so much poorly for Ashish then start dropping messages to him for his wellness.

Means they care each other's in so much passionate manner like girlfriend- boyfriend/ lovers but even they don't know, it's love or anything else. Because Ashish was hardly 19-20 year's of age and Shimpy just attended her 16 year's.It was the first time, they start feel like madness/ craziness to seen each other's messages, even they don't know each other's face/ physical appearances etc. Such beautiful moments of 15 days without communication; those moments, they feel each- other's presence with them, even Ashish felt the presence/existence of Shimpy's soul with him and start flying with her presence in his dreaming life which will be come ahead with her and the same way Shimpy dreaming too about Ashish. She holds Ashish's hand and dreaming the same as Ashish did. There was strong bonding between them that's why they feel the presence of each other's emotions, distance doesn't matter for them. Their feeling that much strong which make them close to each other's heart and felt each other's emotional presence even after thousands of miles distance couldn't apart/ separate them from dreaming of each other's sentiments/ beliefs/ emotions etc.distance doesn't matter if two hearts loyal to each other's.even, both were neither in love nor in relationship but still they felt each-other's presence. It was awesome feeling for both of them.

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when Ashish came back to India after completion of exercises successfully, which were conducted by EU in Atlantic Ocean; here in India, surprises waiting for him from Navy's Headquarter. Ashish's command received two letters from Indian Navy local Headquarter to take disciplinary action against the soldier, these were as:-

A) The first one was for Ashish's SSB interview which was conducted by SSB Allahabad (university entry scheme vacancy). when Ashish was in his pre-final year of engineering then only the same was conducted by army and navy. In UES's exam Army/ Navy offering Job and they asked resume for individuals and after scrutiny the resume, Army HR's panel called the scrutinised students for interview, selected few among all and luckily Ashish get selected in both the exams for further selections interview but Ashish was left the engineering incomplete and join the Indian Navy (direct entry for diploma holder's in engineering branch).

B) the second letter was to take disciplinary  action against the soldier for not informing the above to authority and forwarding a general request for attending the SSB's of Indian Navy and Army.

But unfortunately, approval to attend the interview was not granted by the authority/ command and Ashish's request for the same had been terminated.as per defence guidelines before attending any exams, individual should informed the authority, take permission for the same, approval must be granted by HQ for any exam. It is depends on authority either they are approving or not.Ashish was very upset; thought, his future is darkened.This was the harassed situation for him which he never faced before ever but he was trying to pull out himself from this regression and start keeping himself from the crowd/ limited interaction with the colleagues. Ashish was not that much mature to think, how would pop-out himself from that situation either he left the service and complete his study & attend the interviews of Indian navy and Indian army or continue with service to support the family.After all , Ashish chosen to continue with job only.

Being a young age soldier and new recruit in defence forces Ashish never face such issue and senior were also make him afraid because taking disciplinary action against soldier is known as big issue within service and the same will be mentioned/ documented in soldier's service records book but there is tradition in defence forces; before putting on table to soldier, there is investigations to find the root cause of incident and for Ashish's matter, a team/ board will be formed and the president was senior officer and members were designated officer. During investigation the team/ board will be noted each and every points, the questions will be asked by board president/ members and Ashish disclosed everything/ answered honestly to board.

Board president asked Ashish- why didn't you inform regarding your exams to take approval/ permission from command.

Ashish answered your president- sir, I was in my pre-final year of academic/ not in the Navy that's why it was not feasible.

After formal discussion with Ashish and while listening to Ashish point of view, the investigation board will be satisfied his answers and recommends for minimum punishment to Ashish and urge to command ei.his carrier is in growing stage/ just started so punishment would not be affect his service records.It's taken  2-3 weeks for investigation and finally Ashish got only warnings from command ei. Not to be repeated again the same mistake.

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But 2-3 weeks of investigation was very much terrible/ mentally disturbing for Ashish means he has to think how would answered the question of board's member because every statement of Ashish was recorded, quoted and it was Mentally and psychologically impacting upon him but with his answers board was convinced somehow and one of board's member was impressed with ashish's technical ability and knowledge he had on his assigned works.After all these, the same gentlemen officer called upon Ashish to his cabin, when he listen the issue ei. why Ashish left his education incomplete.

He suggested Ashish, make a letter to authority while quoting the disciplinary action, urged permission from headquarter to complete your higher education and keep your studies. 

He described the things as per his experience in service and said- there is limited resources for study including time too, you have to work at least 10-12 hrs daily's &  your futures depend upon your willingness, you continue with your books/study and complete your graduation first, lot of hurdles comes during the same but it's depends on your dedication/ preparedness, how would you tackle the situation? and Remember one thing always - without degrees, nothing in life and graduations is much important for your future ahead/ Life is not that much easy.we are armed personal, we learned during our training; fight till last breath and never left hope so I suggested you fight with your study in same mannered just like war. As per official order you made a mistake so we had taken disciplinary action against you but my personal opinion is that you complete your studies first.Ashish did the same as per his superior guidance/ suggestion and he started studying again. 

He used to study everyday when the working hours was over around  eight/ nine o'clock at night but some people as expected roommates complain against Ashish ei. He disturbed crewmen of cabin. Again he fall underneath some rule and regulations/ disciplinary action.But now he want to complete his study so he started studying in the dinning hall without disturbing anyone.

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During entire duration of investigation Ashish's cellphone was deposited by Naval police as per instructions given by board president so Ashish was not able to contact with Shimpy but if Ashish want to speak with family then he had to take permission from command and his cellphone given back to him for call only and in-front of naval policemen he would make call at home and after disconnecting, the cellphone had to be deposited/ submitted.It was just like a hassles for him, Ashish also want to know  well-being of Shimpy and urged crewmen for using theirs phone to contact with her but it was clear instructions to crewmen- no cellphone to be provided by anyone to Ashish.

Meanwhile Shimpy also had argued with her roommate regarding expenditure and about room cleaning. But again they settled the dispute/issue between them and decided to shift their room near by their polytechnic college and start searching room for girls nearby polytechnic college.

After some time they find the room at suitable location and shifted there; to near polytechnic college and the college was just few steps away from their room. The room owner was kind/ gentle too for them and very supportive.The owner's son had done  inter-cast love marriage and blessed with two children. His wife was ten year younger to him and her  girl was  very innocent and cutie pie. Shimpy and her roommate, both loved the little cutie-pie and little girl loved to spend most of her time with them too. 

Shimpy messaged Ashish regarding her dispute with roommate/ room shifting hurdles/ her loved with little cutie girl and so many things....usually she feel ei. to be disclosed to Ashish through messages but Ashish was in BQ so was not able to get connect with her. Sometimes, Shimpy feel embracing and wish to connect with Ashish. But it was not possible 

After some time again her roommate and Brijesh from her class come closer and they started chatting to each other. Basically whenever her roommate did chatting with Brijesh then Shimpy also felt loneliness and would like to chat with Ashish But she didn't in the position of 📱 phone. After a few weeks, her computer class has been over and they shifted to workshop.so shimpy was not able to contact with Ashish and the Ashish kept messaging Shimpy, waited for Shimpy's reply but he was not getting any response from her. Seeing such scenario his mind started to be panic and he couldn't understand what to do. How he connect with Shimpy? Ashish just started to search alternate way to connect  with Shimpy and just thinking how to talk with her. 

Then Ashish searched Shimpy's mutual  friend on Facebook and messaged her mutual friend " please info Shimpy to message me". Her mutual friend name was Anu.

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After reading Ashish messages, the Simple question Anu asked to Ashish- who are you? and why are you requesting to Shimpy for messages? Ashish told Anu everything, about conversations they had done  since their first chatting. After hearing all, Anu was decided to help Ashish and start conveying his messages to Shimpy, Ashish most of the time asked Anu about Shimpy's wellness/ pleasure because Ashish knows- Shimpy needed his moral support to counter her fear of exams. Whenever Ashish asked Anu about Shimpy; the same messages Anu conveyed to her next day during classroom and would ask her answer and that answers Anu replied to Ashish too over Facebook. Anu read/understand the feeling of Ashish for Shimpy through messages. the same Anu shared with Shimpy in classroom and again Shimpy's answer/thoughts Anu messaged to Ashish in evening/ late night.But Ashish experienced/ felt not well/ all right about all these conversations throughout mediations because both feeling/ emotions were shared with someone else and that hampered their secrecy. After searching a lot of alternatives, Ashish decided to do something fruitful for Shimpy so their personal emotions would  not be conveyed by anyone.

He requested the Anu: please conveyed the message to Shimpy that is she send a message from her personal account because I have send something to her personal account and require her reply. Shimpy managed to logged in her account  somehow and when she seen the messages of Ashish she was hesitate somewhere and even not in believed. Shimpy reply to Ashish, I am not willing to do, please do not mind but the same is not possible for m. Basically Ashish was asked about Shimpy's bank account number so he could transfer the sufficient amount in her account and she able to purchase a cellphone for herself and would not be dependent on others.Firstly Shimpy denied to give her account no but Ashish was used to manage all and after a long discussions, Shimpy given her scholarship's account number to Ashish. Ashish asked about preference and model no. of cellphone which one she would like to purchased. First she denied the boy proposed idea but later agreed  somehow, while getting the same, Ashish send sufficient amount/money to brought a new cellphone for her. With the amount she could get a new phone;  that was first time  when Ashish send token of love( in the form of amount) to Shimpy to brought a new cellphone. With the amount she received from him, brought a news Nokia mobile and dresses for herself. She was very happy and feel emotionally attached with him.They come closer day by day but still nobody expressed their love and affection to each other. 

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Now she was at the position of cellphone and now she start to chat with Ashish with her new phone and said thanks to Ashish for teaching her how to used banking system to withdraw the money, basically Shimpy came from rural background and just started her diploma after 10th so when she get the amount in her account, even she was hesitant; how to take money from bank account? then Ashish described her whole process, how to fill up the withdrawal form of bank and wait in que at cashier's window and when your turn will be there, then how to take money from cashier's window, this was Shimpy first experience to withdraw money from bank and after taking money she was though/felt like she had won the war and was very happy. It was her first experience such kind of banking system. Now they were started chatting freely to each- other's.

Now their attachments/togetherness beginning to climb but both of them were unaware of the same. They felt, they passionately chatted each-other's and couldn't live without chatting with each other over Facebook and both of them were very eager to see their inbox for any updation/messages all the time/ habitually. That time Ashish  was 19 year old and the girl was just about to 16 year and their love/adoration was truly deeply respected and caring for each-other. Ashish maximum time used to asked:- about her study, foods and lodging etc. how would she is doing? and Shimpy also messaged everything about her personal well-being/worried including  daily activities of classroom and how she is reading everyday for exams as well as preparing herself for competitive exams too.What is the problematic subject for her etc. 

Sometime Shimpy felt bad and afraid to her future if she got less marks than expected during her mid-term exams/ class tests. She was doing diploma in civil engineering after clearing high school so the syllabus of first year was vast/ lengthy and though too for her. She discussed so many times with Ashish about her exams-phobia and much she was scared ei. if She will not be passed/cleared the first year and diploma then how would she faced her parents.Ashish used to make Shimpy feel  calm/relaxed, comfortable/ motivated her and praise Shimpy's hardworking nature and try to make her feel better about her upcoming futuristic life. 

Ashish said Shimpy:- please assume, if you will clear the diploma with good score and get an opportunity to serve in your desire organisation/ field and you will earn sufficient amount and the same you will offered/ present in hand of your parents then what will be parents reactions; Shimpy always thinks positive please and continue with your hard work, do your level best and I promise you- you  will never be failed, it's my challange.

While listening these words from Ashish, Shimpy felt positively charged and start to gives her best.

Ashish was also had done diploma after metric(high school) so he always shared his experience with her and try to make Shimpy comfortable and familiar with study and relieved her stressed which she felt during reading and terms exams.She discussed/told to Ashish she is not confident in 2-3 subject, had scared with same and would like to do coaching classes to scores good marks in yearly board exam but she didn't want to disclosed/ discus regarding coaching and fee with family. Ashish was suggested her; just do, whatever you want to do for scoring  good marks in exams.because once time has gone never be returned so do your best for future; not for yourself, give your best efforts for the future of your's parents/family.

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As per discussion/ conversations they had, Ashish suggested Shimpy to start doing coaching of her weak subjects ei. maths, physics.Try to improve your communication skill too.After few week of coaching classes Shimpy  got confident on mathematics and other engineering subjects.

Shimpy's father was a farmer and doing farming/ husbandry works only.Shimpy  messages to Ashish, her father could not able to give her coaching fee due to economical issues of her family.

Ashish was  ready to assist her economically and convinced Shimpy to continue with her coaching and he will transferred fee of coaching classes  in her scholarship's account. Shimpy was so pleased with boy commitment for her, how he is helping for her studies. Ashish message Shimpy , please make me promise you will not be disclosed anything to anyone regarding your coaching fee; which will be submitted by me. 

In polytechnic college, maximum students come from poorer/ lower middle class family backgrounds so the amount students have gotten from their family, with that amount it would be very difficult to survive for a month.But maximum students used to manage somehow. They minimise their expenses and with limited resources, most of students managed; with the money/ amount which will be given by their family on monthly basis. So maximum students not willing to do coaching classes and  wouldn't like to be financial burdens on family so mostly they do group/ self studies.But Shimpy was afraid for her upcoming first year final terms exams so as per Ashish suggestions/urging, she started coaching classes and get confident over weak subjects.Still both of them had not expressed their love to each-other but they were started to share their personal things/issues to disclosed; which would be shared to closer only. Shimpy  was fair in her colour complexion and was bright  brain too. Her learning skills was good enough and she was laborious too.

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After few days, Shimpy asked Ashish - why are you so much caring about me and giving your hard earn money to me for my coaching's fee/studies.Is any motto/ reason behind and you would not like to disclose me, why are you doing this for me? I do not understand your purpose to support me for my education.

Ashish said Shimpy - you are not the only one; to whom I am helping. I am not that much capable to wipe the tear of everyone's eyes  but I am trying to do the same with maximum one,to whom I could help to make them capable to fulfils their desire who would not able to achieve only because of money, support them/educate them etc. If anyone willing to study but not able to continue only because of economic conditions, I try to motivate them and support them.

Ashish said to Shimpy- Do you know that Education is the only tool/thing which built up the individual's character,morality, integrity, honesty and most important- education teaches individual to respected every souls. 

I left my education incomplete, I always regretted, why did I do that? Still I am trying to complete my education. But working in defence, it is slightly hard but I will do my best to continue with study.

And don't worry, you are not the only individual to whom I am helping; there is one boy too from my village and he is my cousin and his name is Amil, I am taking care of him too. 

Then Ashish discloses the Amil economical condition with Shimpy and how Amil is economically weak too so Ashish decided to support him for his education. Amil is applied for polytechnic entrance exam too and appeared in exam but he was not fortunate to select this year and when he felt sad/demoralised then how I motivated Amil to start afresh/prepare yourself for next time.Ashish described Shimpy about Amil family's condition and how Amil was struggling with his educational career so Ashish decided to help. Now Amil feel something better about his career. 

Shimpy was surprisingly asked him- seriously you are doing at that much level to help people's.You are doing well job and I have ever heard in my village/community that anyone  has helped someone without their selfishness that's why I am surprised how are you doing without telling anyone, you are spending money to build-up the individual's carrier.

 Ashish replies to Shimpy- don't worry, I am just supporting them, that's what I could do for them. Rest, it is in the god's/individual's hand- how much capable and laborious they are about their own lives and future.

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After that, Ashish also started preparing for his engineering exams as well as competitive; both were very happy while seeing each other chatting whenever feel upset and depressed and after reading each other's chats-They got courage, strength and confidence for future. Here, Ashish while seeing Shimpy's dropped messages in inbox forgotten his all stressed , working hours, extended routines and all misery and feel freshen and enthusiastic life. Shimpy also felt same like Ashish too. Shimpy also felt feeling of love, caring, affection and emotions for the Ashish but never disclosed him; Due to operation requirements/ sea sorties, sometimes Ashish couldn't message her and Ashish was not able to seen Shimpy's messages too so at that time both feel sad, loneliness and emotionally closeness/instability of feelings; because they used to do chats everyday. Ashish could easily feel her tears and sadness when he was not able to chat with her and Shimpy had same feeling too.Sometime she feel bad and afraid to her future if got less marks than expected during terms exam/ class tests. She was doing diploma in civil engineering after high school so the syllabus of first year was so vast/lengthy and though. She discussed so many times the same with Ashish and always asked him- shall I clear the first year and diploma? I have a doubt on myself and not much confident for the same; then Ashish used to encourage her- please forget about first year/ diploma exams, you just keep yourself with books and these are the true friends of our, forget about uncertainty of exam's results, just prepare yourself for doing better in exams. That's enough and don't worry, your hard work will never be wasted. So keep studying hard. After hearing such words from Ashish, Shimpy felt confident and start to prepare herself for future.

Ashish was also had done his diploma after metric so he always used to share his experience with Shimpy and try to make her comfortable and familiar with study and relieved her stressed which she felt during reading and terms exam.

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When shimpy was in near about her half yearly exams, there was screening of first year students for  NCC cadets and Shimpy also want to join the NCC because her roommate( Apsaa yadav) joins the same but Shimpy's height was slightly short(she was just close to 5 feet) so Shimpy was worried, she will be selected in NCC or not, Shimpy's roommate already qualified for NCC enrolment. So Shimpy also decided to do NCC but her roommate said Shimpy- it's very hard for girls due to physical activity. Shimpy was slightly healthy(little fat) so she was afraid with Apsaa's advice/comments and decided:-will not be participated in the screening  for fresh NCC cadets selections. 

One day, Shimpy was chatting with Ashish; then she said:- you are in defence forces , do you guide me? NCC will be good for me or not because Apsaa firstly join the NCC but now she left due to its hard working nature and fully focusing on study/ first year exams. Actually Apsaa was doing her diploma after completion of intermediate(10+2) so Shimpy was hesitant/afraid to join the NCC as cadet if Apsaa is worried for first year exams at that much levels then how I could think to do NCC?

Ashish said Shimpy:- Yes, you are right ie. For NCC Physical training and basics of parade are necessary and you have to do but remember one thing, we as human being always become successful/ stronger throughout struggles only so keep yourself busy and explore your life maximum till the paramount and show the people's with your enthusiastic craziness about your destiny. 

Ashish also said Shimpy: Forget what the people's saying about you? nobody knows about yourself/life better than you, first asked within you; what is your motto- would you like to join NCC.

Shimpy said Ashish: yes, definitely. I would like to wear uniform.

Ashish message Shimpy: then, listen your inner voice and just do it, go and join the NCC, do your best in NCC to and Let the people's speak, whatever they speak. Focus on your own goal and develop as well as improve your skills. Action speaks faster than word. So, do your work, just ignore them..let your success makes noise.

After hearing these word from Ashish, Shimpy has made her mind and messaged Ashish- by tomorrow morning, I am going to registered my name in the volunteers list which is kept with one of his senior "under officer"(rank of cadets in NCC which will be senior most cadet).

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The next day, during lunch time- Shimpy visited to the desk of NCC's volunteers and registered her name to enrolled herself. 

After that, she faced a small interview & physical test before enrolling in NCC, she did well and when the final list was announced- she was selected for NCC as cadets. She was happy and scared too. The main things, she was thinking that; how she managed her study with NCC because NCC needed much physical strength. After joining the NCC, Shimpy doned her NCC's uniform started to follow the instructions for parades which was given by NCC's trainers and during chatting with Ashish- She explained her daily NCC's activities ei. I was given the rifles, grenade, launchers etc. and instructed us to do stripping/ assembling exercises and we were taught so many things about the weapons which are used by defence forces.At that times, NCC's activity for her like a refreshingly to relaxing her mind after class was over. She was enjoying the NCC's drills/ command and adventure. Often- time, Shimpy used to ask with Ashish; about weapons signature and technical terminology, whichever  she was taught/ told by the NCC instructors. 

 Some times Shimpy said to Ashish- I was feeling something imaginable while donning the NCC's uniform and at that time, felt only about my country and it's citizens. How to serve and give 100% of myself for making better India and society.we used to do social works too and while giving my hours to society, I felt the insightful satisfaction.

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Both were feeling better talking to each other and making each other feel comfortable. Shimpy used to discuss with Ashish about  her daily activities (like.. Class, coaching, NCC and her friend's circled gossip) when she went to bed after dinner, while chatting each other's, both get energised about their future. Now Shimpy shows  her maturity and keeps herself acquainted/familiarise with class, coaching and NCC.Now she was no longer afraid for her first Year diploma in civil annual exam. She  overcame her exam's fear and decided to give her optimum performance in annual examination, which is to be just conducted by the BTE (UP).Ashish also started self study to clear his Degree(B.Tech) because he get the approved acceptance  letter from headquarter for his further study. When Ashish was in his final year of engineering then he was enrolled for Indian Navy ( Engineering Branch) on the basis of Diploma in engineering. After lots of effort and letter correspondence with HQ, finally he got the approval from Indian Navy as well as acceptance from the university too, to clear his rest semesters and allowed  to attend the semester exam from next year.actually,each of us witnessed/ noticed if some well-wishers around you try to keep you motivated/ positively charged towards your goal (determined aim) but some are  try to drag you down and feel jealous while doing/ achieving your best. The same thing, at that time was happening with Ashish too, some colleagues including authoritative didn't in favour for his further studies but somehow Ashish was able to get approval and this also inspired/ motivated young blood of Ashish's shipmates to go for higher study so that they also explored their-self and enhanced the educational qualifications.At very young age, Ashish also understands the way, how to manage hurdles and keep an eyes on his goal.

Here Shimpy is also preparing for her annual exam to get maximum results. Basically Ashish and Shimpy were complemented  each other to keep both motivated for future and determined goals.

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Both, Shimpy and Ashish were connected through unknown supreme bond. Even both of them, neither know that they are in love with each other nor it was not possible for both of them to stay away without chatting for longer time. They just want to stay connected forever because whenever Ashish or Shimpy wants to speak with each other's so easily can messaged and get reply back simultaneously and they were love to share their feelings with words only,both of them- even neither Ashish nor Shimpy thinks ; about to share their cellphone no. for voice call etc. They were just busy to share their emotions through messages only on Facebook.Both were busy to creating a great memories and their emotions was just about to blossom but  a surprised experience waiting for Ashish and god had something else approved for both of them. Ashish was transferred on temporary duty to a warship which one was assigned for a task to rescue the Indian citizen from somewhere in Middle East. In Middle East Asian country, there was  fighting between rebellions and government's forces for supremacy. 

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Before going to abroad Ashish already transferred estimated amount of money in Shimpy's scholarship account for her coaching fees, stationaries and future uncertain requirements. After a week when she went to bank for printing her passbook with her batchmates then she saw that credited amount which was transferred by Ashish. She thought it is her scholarship but when Shimpy discussed about scholarship with her friends about the amount she got, except her none of her friends credited, after few days she used to visit bank for the same and requested to bank manager for source of the credited money then bank manager said to Shimpy- the source from where she got the amount. Now Shimpy understands, the same was transfer by Ashish for her coaching classes fee/daily uses etc. she was trying to message Ashish but it was no mean's because Ashish was on transit way to his next assigned task for Middle East Asia.

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The Ship's crew briefed by commanding officer/ ship's officer about the  responsibility of individuals and challenges ship's crew might be faced during rescue, basically this is the tradition of defence force's whenever ship's deployed " the summary about deployment will be discussed with ship's crew and took their experiences/ suggestions if applicable the same implemented ". 

After completion of briefing;  ship's EO took the meeting of COW("chief of watch"the men are behind machines; responsible to sail the ship) and asked COW to suggest about the appropriate time whenever we shall start our journey to reached at assigned location in Red Sea  and said - as per Naval command "we have to start our journey just now so that we could reach at ETA( estimated time of arrival) but Naval command also approved "Final decision will be left on ship's CO Saab for leaving the jetty and EO said - commanding officer willing to give liberty to all married ship's crew to visit their accommodation to see their family before leaving the port. It was the first time when Ashish realised the actual meaning of family commitments/ emotions and time, how a soldier's managed their selves and families within given limited times and how they control their emotions. Only a soldier's and their family could understand that emotions/ sacrifices etc. After all these ; the final decision taken by CO saab to leave the jetty was around midnight. The married ship's company got some leverage to visit at home and in-living ( who resided at ship's only ) crew started the "sea and action" checks ( final trials of all fitted machinery onboard  before deployment ) of machinery to know the current running status.

After all ship's was deployed in midnight for her journey; it was briefed 30-35 day's operation.when the ship was just leaves the coastal area of Indian territory and entered into international water of Arabian Sea ; the sea was very rough and sea states was 6-7 , which is very tough to survival for human beings; most of the ship's crew felt the sea - sicknesses , finally they reached at allocated point and started the task of rescuing the Indian Nationals.

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The mission was highly classified because it was rescue operations of Indian nationals/ citizens of friendly country to India from Middle East Asia war zone and ship's crew were work tirelessly with the motto of every lives  to be saved and transported them at safe zone " somewhere in North Africa " for their flight to India . So maintain the secrecy of  ship's movement , it was briefed that nobody even will speak to the war victims, we are here to rescue them and just perform that only. There was threats of rebellion too, If ship's movement will be traced by the rebels then it will be harm to rescuing of civilians ei. Witnesses of two incidents one was happened with US Navy  and another with French too. That's why s command would not like to take any chance / loop holes for security measures. The ship's crew were briefed very hardly " how to behave with citizens while rescued operations and the belongings (only routine-kit and a pair of clothe) would be allowed to citizens/ civilians can carry along-with them while rescued.

Ship's crew were allowed to had  a call in 10 days to communicate with their family to known well being of families and the call duration was just 1 -2 minute only through satellite cellphone. At Ashish's tern of calling- he called his mother and didn't able to say anything after few seconds when colleagues were said Ashish speak "your phone is connected " then Ashish just said - " Amma" I am fine here and how is everyone there at home. While looking at the face of colleagues who were waiting in queues for their turn, Ashish disconnected the phone just before his allowed time-slot and started crying ; " most of the ship's crew after spoken with  their family got emotional. It was such huge emotional pain for Ashish and it couldn't describe into words and never be written. "such painful  emotions can experienced only". While seeing Ashish's condition, some of his seniors started to discuss their experiences; how were they dealing such emotional problems when they were in young age;  for giving emotional strength to Ashish.

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Ashish was not that much mature enough by his age but the experiences he gain there, that made him feel human values ei. every life is matter and emotions of anyone never be hurt & Always try to help people's etc. 

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Shimpy continued with her classes/coaching for  her first year annual exam, which was about to be very soon and Shimpy was preparing herself mentally for the same.She needed time to prepare herself for annual exam. while looking at the situation; Ashish messaged Shimpy - Now we should minimised  the frequency of messages  to each-other so that you could get sufficient time to prepare yourself for annual exam.You will message me then only when you feel stressed and bored, I will send  just reply to your messages only. After all; she appeared in her first day/ first subject of annual exam and she did well in her first day as per her expectations, also  she got confidence for next upcoming exams. Within 10 days her first year annual exam was over and Shimpy performed very well in exam as per her expectation.    

After completion of theoretical annual exam ,there was practical's exam also, practical's date will be promulgated by   HODs,the practical's exam will be conducted after one week decided by HOD so that students can refreshed themselves.

 Shimpy messaged Ashish : I am feeling home sickness and would like to visit  home, wish to spend quality time with family .

My roommate had gone to visit her home too, she will come back when the practical's date will be announced. Shimpy's roommate was from different branch of engineering so there was chance , her practical's viva date will not be coincide with Shimpy's.

After seeing her message; Ashish urged Shimpy: " the practical exam's marks is much important than theory's. You know,in theory's exam - you shall scored  maximum mark's upto 50-60 % only  but if you will do well in your practical's- definitely you shall get 85-95 % and overall you score combined marks ( theory's + practical's) will be around 75-80%; so it's better for you to be here  and prepare yourself for the practical's viva etc.; after an hour conversation, Shimpy decided- she will be here at room  and prepare her practical's viva. Now Shimpy started studying the topics of viva. Both were, while chatting to each other discussed about the topics which were maximum chance to ask by the examiner during practical's viva.

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Now Shimpy was living alone in the room but most of her friends had gone theirs home after theory's exams were over.Even after 2-3 days , Shimpy again started crying/ feeling loneliness . Ashish explained this time very seriously to Shimpy - this is the time to make yourself strong and focused towards your goal, you must remember - study needs sacrifices/ a lot of efforts etc. on right way to achieve/ taste your destiny so please avoid all such things which make you weaker towards your goal. Just focus only on your study; after completion of your practical/ viva you will definitely visit your Home too with satisfaction mind ei. I have given my 100% efforts in annual exam.If you will go home now  then somewhere you will think About your study/ viva exams etc. and will not be able to fully enjoy your stay at home so be here and study hard/ prepare yourself for viva. After a lot of discussion- Shimpy was fully convinced and texted to Ashish - while discussing with you those things (which are causing trouble to me), I get strength to fight with my inner fears for future and I always get best suggestions from you of any kind of problem, I couldn't explain to you ; how much you mean to me more than above everything , after a week she attended her practical's viva exams. She did well in her practical exams too as much as she could. On the last day of her practical exam, Shimpy messaged Ashish- she will not continue chatting with him because (In evening) I am going to home and I will not carry the cellphone at home because it will leads so many questions/ issue for me. I did not inform my parents, that I had a cellphone , so I decided - I will switched off the cellphone and kept it here in my room only . 

Ashish told Shimpy : It's not a big deal to me and you go home with peace of mind and  enjoy the family time/ togetherness to the fullest . Ashish was in defence, so he knows the pain of loneliness/ pain of being  away from family.The next day Shimpy left the polytechnic college and went to her home. Before leaving the room Shimpy send thanks note to Ashish, for his moral support/ suggestions etc. through which she was able to do her best in first year of her course. 

              CHAPTER - II

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Ashish went somewhere in gulf of Hormuz for anti -piracy operations just after few days  Shimpy's visit her home. It was just like a routine for Ashish to chat with Shimpy everyday but Shimpy was at her home and Ashish was on his deployment abroad.Ashish knows - he is in onboard-ship and there is no network at mid-sea,shimpy too couldn't reply his messages but still Ashish keep sending messages to her of his feelings just like love birds. Ashish knows the gravity of secrecy of ship's operation so he never ever wrote anything about his/ ship's movement, work culture etc. to neither Shimpy even nor his parents too, Ashish keep writing everyday to Shimpy whenever he got time after duties. Shimpy was at home too enjoying the her precious vacation with her family and her nephew Abhinandan; she also send a lot of photos ,videos of Abhinandan playing with her to Ashish by using her sister in law cellphone through Facebook. Shimpy send one of most funny videos of Abhinandan , in that video Abhinandan was trying to tie a calf (so innocently). After few days BTE result was announced and Shimpy was cleared her first year exam, she was very happy of her performance in first year exam , she scored 76%;her parents was happy too with daughter achievement; now she started to believe in herself ei. She could achieve the desired goal of her life. 

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Shimpy was very excited to disclosed her first year result with Ashish but Ashish was on transit to somewhere in Red Sea so neither Ashish could see the messages of Shimpy nor Shimpy could see Ashish's text messages.Shimpy also used to send lot of messages to Ashish from her Facebook's account by using her nephew Abhinandan's mother cellphone.      

After first year vacation, Shimpy returned to her room at Govt polytechnic to attend  second year classes. Shimpy also got her first year scholarship.She has paid her second year fee with scholarship amount and  she was wanting to return the remaining part of her scholarship amount to Ashish.After thinking about many things, she decided , she would give maximum amount of her scholarship to Ashish because Ashish had funded her previous year's coaching fee and all stuff. She has written a message to Ashish regarding her willingness ei. She wants to return the maximum part of her scholarship amount to Ashish and thank him for his support even when she was facing negativity/ exam's fear during her first year's exam.her roommate promoted in second year too with back-paper in 02 subject. Shimpy cleared her first year without back-papers so she was very much exited about her result and confident too for second Year. Shimpy was very much eager to discuss her result with Ashish too but unfortunately Ashish couldn't see her messages in chat box.Ashish was deployed for counter insurgency operation in somewhere Iraq- Iran border (Gulf of Hormuz).

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After completion of deployment successfully at foreign soil, finally On intercom ship's commanding officer announced that ship got a signal from WarRoom ( Delhi ) to come back at parent Port and Indian Navy sending a sister vessel to relieve us . we shall soon touched the soil of motherland. We shall meet our families, A departmental get together/ Picnic will be organised for ship's company including families too where we all - taste the fresh food & fruits after long time to counter the sea sickness/ home sickness etc. ; we shall assumed 01 day Sunday routine for ship's married crew to spend quality time with their family to strengthen their mental health. Ashish was happy too ei. Now he can send all unsend messages from his Facebook account to Shimpy which were written by him during Gulf patrolling. The ship's journey started at midnight after handing taking over has been done with relieving sister vessel (Destroyer).It was approximately 48 hours journey from ship's relieving point at Red Sea  to ship's parent port in India. During said journey Ashish imagine so many ways to speak with Shimpy when she will asked about of his deployment/ nature of work etc. Ashish never said to Shimpy- anything about his job at Warship , sometimes Shimpy was asked him too of his work at onboard but Ashish always said I am the man in uniform (soldier) taking order from command and execute in same manner as Command is expected from me.

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Finally Ashish reach at shore and touched the Indian soil , After shutting of all running machines, systems and equipments onboard except those which are needed to run at jetty .Attend the commanding officer briefing which is necessary to participate all ship's crew except those on essential duties. Ashesh kept his phone at his cabin's port hole side so that mobile could access tower signal and send his all heartily messages to Shimpy. During briefing of command Ashish was thinking about the messages which were written by him to Shimpy of his feelings and experiences he got there during deployment. Finally briefing was over and command allowed to crew for disperse from meeting point and married crew allowed to visit their home. Some crew's family already came to jetty to receive them. It was exited feeling for them. Finally Ashish seen the messages send by Shimpy. Her messages clearly expressed her excitement after clearing of her first year exam and happiness of her family too. Shimpy send her thankful notes to Ashish for his moral support . She also mentioned Ashish  for his commitment during preparation of her first year exam.After seeing Shimpy's messages - Ashish became emotional and had tears of happiness in his eyes . Ashish also use to send messages to Shimpy for her dedication and hard work to clear her first year exam and making her parents proud on her.

To be continue………