An Unconventional Love Story

Have you ever suffered more to make someone suffer by not texting them?

This was my situation.

I was not sending him childish messages from three days in a row just to see if he text me or not.

I kept sending him childish, frivolous, silly messages as I didn't know exactly what to say continuously after hearing that he could stay by my side ever, but not with me; all I wanted was to stay connected with him.

He had a problematic relationship, as he said. He could not be with her, nor even with me, but all he had said was that he had an amorous feeling for me.

Though he never texted first asking simple things that people do in a relationship, but he had intense feelings for me that were all for me to stay connected with him, as in my life I wanted nothing but love.

Therefore, to test his love I made myself suffer by not texting him for three days and to my good deeds perhaps I got his text on the fourth day, it was the song link of "lag ja gaale" from youtube.

Ah! That was enough for me to be melted like the choco bar ice cream in summer: if you once remove the hard chocolate coating from the outside, the inside ice cream starts to melt fast.

Anyway, though the song was familiar to me I had listened to it thoroughly, and only after hearing it completely without skipping, like it was a mandatory and sacred ritual of worshipping a particular God, I replied to him with a red beating heart.

He replied with an emoji with a smile.

And it was also enough for him to be reassured that yes his half-beloved was still in love with him.

As I was super excited after receiving his WhatsApp as usual, I couldn't resist myself. Though he didn't ask why I hadn't texted him, it was as if I had heard his untold question. Therefore I had sent him a long message that "actually I was busy with college assignments and all. Oh don't ask me how much these assignments are giving me trouble, I was upset with my family too..." and so much like this to convince him that I was not avoiding him. Also added that "don't think I will ever stop annoying you, my love. " with a winked emoji.

Again he replied with the emoji that defines "feeling the love".

Now, whenever I think about those childish days I just smile a lot at how much insane was I those days, knowing that I was neither his first love nor his priority, I just kept loving him.

No, he was not faulty. He had replied to my proposal at first that he had a girlfriend, but they were going through problems, their relationship was no more, but still, he was just connected with her.

After talking to me for many months he had also replied that " I love you too. But I can't even think to hurt you. Like the other relationship, ours is not going to conventional marriage, but I want to stay connected with you forever. I don't want to lose you. You are special to me."

Though I never prayed to break their weak relationship, rather I was always praying for his happiness.

I was never tried to play the role of a Banyan tree between old cracked walls to expand the crack furthermore. But honestly, I must say, I was waiting to hear from him that "yes, our problematic relationship has no existence now. Now I am all yours. Will you marry me?"

But it never happened and once I got a text from him that they were going to marry.

That was my one-sided love story, or rather I should say the story of my lifeline, who's half-beloved was I.

It was neither adultery nor a relationship, rather I had played the role of a catalyst may be and their damaged, broken relationship joined once again.

Don't know whether they are living happily ever after, but I am here writing happily with his memories and listening to "kalank nahi ishq hai kajal piya", once he had sent me.