Altair (July-7)

This story isn't mine, But of a person close enough to me, to my heart. Though I can feel the pain so deep.

It was all started in Kolkata! "The city of joy". A huge city, & a very young boy with his heart, filled with love, passion, dreams. Lives with his family which starts and ends with his Mom. 

"what is meant to be, will always find its way to happen" thousands of questions like this made us believe that every specific thing of this world has been written. It is all scripted before it happens. & of course, there is absolutely a reason behind every particular thing to get happen.

And this is also meant to be too and it all started through the social media sites, which removes the distance between contries, cities, peoples, & also between two lovers as well. And in my vision of thought, in this story, social media has taken the role of "Magpies" a special kind of bird species & also a character from the famous Japanese story of "Star-Festival" or "Hoshi-Matsuri"(celebrates by the Japanease culture). In Japan, This festival defines as a festival of two lovers meeting up ceremony, which comes after a long term of seven days on the seventh months of every year (it is the date of July-7). Orihime (star-Vega) the princess, & Hikoboshi (star-Altair) the prince (the two lovers), and it says that those Magpies birds help these two lovers by removing the distance between them so that they could meet up to each other.

Here in this story social media(Magpies) has taken the place of Magpies that removed the distance between these two lovers. It is a distance of almost 566km to 627km. And finally they got connected. 

From Kolkata to Siliguri.......

Siliguri, a little, beautiful, calm city in the lap of mountains, located to the northeast side of an Indian map. A young complicated girl from Siliguri, the word "complicate" I use cause she doesn't understand herself too. Then how anybody else will !! She is a complicated girl with her world full of anxiety & joy at the same time, careless, kinda crazy, kinda childish, sometimes mature behaviour & so many more. "As I said she couldn't understand her too." But all over she is kind & really a warm-hearted, down to earth person; but you must have to cross her hardness first to get her kind, warm heart. The distance between these two peoples has come over. They got attached, they talked, they relate. By some times it has became soo clear that they both really started liking each other. But she was never ready to accept that feeling. She didn't even know what she feels about him or what she really wants?! Moreover Somewhere she was afraid, confused about something, what she never knew about, or she doesn't want to admit that I guess. So I couldn't predict the exact reason behind her thoughts of confusions. Though once I asked her then she replied to me that it was all just for the distance she couldn't accept him. At a time she tries to ignore him, less talking to him. Even after well known to the fact that he really wanted to be with her. If she has accepted then the story might hold a different ending or at least a satisfying ending. But life is so much unpredictable. We never know what is gonna happen next. They fewer talks but talks at least. Once they have a conversation when he told her that "he will gonna come to Siliguri soon. So if she'll gonna meet up with him??" she has replied "Of course, she will meet. For sure." & after that the pandemic situation has begun all over the world, Every place has been Lockdown for a while, everything has lockdown, life has stopped. & the world became filled with sadness everywhere. 

Who knows that their meeting will never gonna happen anymore, his part in her life was this short. Who knew that was the last convo between these two lovers, Who haven't even accepted their feelings for each other yet. 

It was July 4. She got to knew about his condition at Siliguri. By a WhatsApp status with a picture of him, captioned "At Hospital". She emidietly ask him to know what happened. He didn't reply back. 

On the 3rd day, at hospital he died. It was the exact date of July-7. His pictures were coming over and over into her facebook timeline, "Everyone is giving thier love to him for the last time." The moment she got to knew about this, she literally broke down badly. Though she never showed it to anybody ever, & was thinking over, what exactly happened to him in just three days. She was broken, shocked & curious at the same time to know all about & tries to connect with his friends. Then got to knew that, he was admitted to a hospital in Kolkata & was suffering from blood cancer, it was the last stage. And it wasn't just she, every single person was shocked as well after knowing about his sudden death. It has never been accepted to anybody at first, nobody could accept that he is actually no more. 

After that, she just kept quiet & suffered inside silently, which nobody knows about yet. She regrets herself, misses him badly, & finally realizes all those her confusions are nothing but love. Love for him, which she never understands. but it was then too late; & it wasn't her fault at all, she just simply thought they have lots of time and everything will gonna settle down when the right time will come. She even has decided after their last convo if they will gonna meet-up she'll confess her all thoughts or feelings for him but before that, it all ended. The day they are looking for, never came.

Whatever their thoughts about the distance were right. They couldn't cover up the distance between them, or maybe they could. if they both have made their efforts work. Who knows!!

But man!! the ending!! 

It will still gonna remain the same as it is. It even breaks my heart. I am just failed to wonder, if how does she hold back her tears for so long. How she did it!?

Thogh he is no more but his presence in her heart will still gonna remain the same forever. She remembers him whenever miss him. In every occasion wishes him. Sometimes reads his written poems and sometimes just simply looks at his pictures. She has accepted his unpresence in this cruel world and made her own world with him in her imagination, In the world where they both were together always. no more disrance & no more ends. Only togetherness.

Days were going well. Then suddenly in the end of the year, she started suffering through some health issues. Some times headache,sometime shivering or high fever. This has been continued for more than a month. Day by day situation was getting out of control. Then after suffering of almost one & a half months when her health was not improving she was eminently transferred to the hospital. After a week in the hospital, situations became more complicated. Tests after tests has been done but nothing got founded in the reports. Even the doctors were getting confused to find out the exact reason of her health condition like this. Her family was getting panicked over her health. At a time Doctors were started guessing by her physical condition & symtoms that it might be blood cancer or something like that. The situation gets too much serious. & then a miracle happened exactly in the seventh-day doctors have finally predicted the exact reason of her health condition. It was not that much serious, as the doctors guess it is. it was actually nothing to worry about. & the moment the report has been declared, from the second moment her health has started improving. No more headaches, fever nothing. She was there for observation of two more days & then discharged & came back to home very fine by battling so long. She has remembered something that on the seventh night at hospital she has saw a dream. It was he in her dream. She sees, that was the exact hopital she was admitted to & he's coming forward to her, wearing a white coat. Just like the doctors wear, After that she couldn't remember it. But she is sure in her dream it was him. It was Arko.

I've no words from where to start talking about what I feel. I really have no idea if it's really him, who saved her life, or it's just a miracle. I would never know this and that's so fine. Sometimes it's really better to be unrevealed. Just simply should thankful to the spiritual power. And you know what! all these words "What" or "How" is worthless, when it comes to life.