Yearnings
Yearnings
All my life, I've yearned
For things I cannot name.
For moments to take down
My pretentious act and present
Myself, for who I really am.
I've breathed very little,
And suffocated so much more,
The fowl stingy odour
Of self deprecation consuming
Me, little by little with every
Passing moment.
All my life, I've yearned
For times to stand still,
And look terror in its eyes.
To find myself in a crowd
Of known and unknown names
And not feel the tingle of
Anxiety ripping through my skin.
All my life, I've yearned
For that one second,
Where I'll feel loved
And not laughed at.
Being the clown for the
People you tag as 'friends'
Isn't easy, I've learned that.
I hate being interrogated
For not smiling at times.
All my life, I've yearned
For another quick glance
At something as pretty
As romance.
The passionate kind.
The one, where things are
Dramatic, almost at the brink
Of tragedy.
Where a hand is always there
To hold me when I'm weak,
And a shoulder to carry me
When I'm burdened by myself.
All my life I've yearned
For a life that I've never lived.
A balance between everything,
Less chaos and more smiles.
For love that wasn't meant to be
Mine,
For eyes that were meant to empathize
And not glare with darkness.
Desires are surreal,
And all one can do is
Manifest.
And manifestations don't
Realise.