A Letter To Maya

the nights feel colder than ever

spring is near but i am stuck

in the blizzard from the december of 2017

warm hands have turned icy

the mind is frostbitten

senses know the chill

flowers don't bloom anymore

where are you?

maya, do you remember me?

maya, do you know my favorite colour?

do you know my favourite books

and songs?

maya, do you know me anymore?

where are you?

i scream your name in the darkness

with my soul full of despair

and so much desperation 

it barely holds back the tears

maya, i miss your palm

securing my face

keeping them warm and rosy

maya, i miss the scent of your perfume

oh! i can barely recollect what it

smelled like, was it fruity or floral?

where are you

do you remember where we first met?

do you remember, maya, the first

words you uttered?

your love for the night sky

your love for star gazing 

do you remember?

do you know your way home now?

are you lost, maya?

where are you?

i used to feel your presence 

around me, like the sultry coffee

air in a cosy café 

and now i have started to feel nothing

but a void that keeps expanding

like the universe

are you the galaxy lights years away

whom i shall never reach

even if i tiptoe my way

with light itself?

i'd really appreciate if you

stopped this hide and seek

and find your way back, maya

where are you?