Solitude Is Not What I Want
Solitude Is Not What I Want
One day at midnight
Things came to a grinding halt
I was said not to move
I am alone at my abode
I thought I could
Pass through with fun
As sometimes
I used to enjoy solitude
But a few days have past
Now I understand the pain
Of being alone
No family
No friends
Social distance
To the core
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
I miss the morning bell
When the milk man
Used to ring
Sheepishly I used to wake
And my day starts to move
Neither the milkman
Nor the bell
Now I do not know
When it is dawn
Slumberous it has become
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
Some calls here and there
A few video calls
With my family and friends
Alone I am in these turbulent times
Video calls make me miserable
I see them together
But me in the wilderness
The brain starts pricking
Envious I am and emotionally drained
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
A sip of wine
I thought would save my time
The wine did not taste
What it could have tasted
A drop of whiskey I thought
Would give me the kick
Fear of being alone
Loomed largely
Neither the wine nor the whiskey
Could do the trick
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
Passion to Cook
I thought I did have
A day or two went by
When the utensils
Piled into a heap
No sight of the maid
To clear the same
The passion to cook
Too was lost
Within a day or two
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
Someone suggested
Me to read books
I too picked one
A page or two
Went by,
I thought it has made
The trick
Not before I realized
That boredom
Started hitting me again
As I could see either only
The book,
Or the roof
In which I stayed alone
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
I felt that
The nature is at its best
Started peeping through
The window
To see the birds chirping
And the sky so clean
An hour or so passed by
When I realized
There was no dynamism
I feared I might
Lose the sense of beauty
If continued for long
Nay: Solitude is not what I want
I am emotionally drained
I know not what Corona
Can cause to me,
But I am depressed
And suppressed too
Not sure how long
Can I prolong?
Nay: Solitude is not what I want