Silly Little Me

My body has frozen and my thoughts are burning.

Stupid experiences are teaching, but I'm not learning.

I don't understand what I see, can't trust what I feel.

I've been hurting forever now, don't want to know how to heal.

I can laugh with some, I can make some laugh

But I still am way too incomplete to be somebody's half.

Maybe I'm just silly after all.

So silly little me thinks, she needs to die to go to hell.

Silly little me begs for a coin, for the wishing well.

Unaware that she's already in a familiar planet reborn,

Silly little me thinks she won't be heard, if she doesn't yell.

I'm silly, ain't I?

My feet move forward, I move deeper, into this earth rebuilt.

I thought I would forget my fears, but instead memorized some extra guilt.

These things called themselves humans, but they smelt so close to plastic.

They chose happy, lived happy and all was oh-so-fantastic!

They told me that I looked wrong, because I didn't look like them.

I dare not smile unless every tooth of mine shone like a gem.

Maybe I'm just silly after all.

So silly little me is just a fairy, in the wrong fable.

Silly little me has great cards, but is at the wrong table.

Unaware that she's in a prison for no crime,

Silly little me thinks giving love, makes her lovable.

I'm silly, ain't I?

I thought I found my clarity, I fooled myself again.

In a world full of predators, I was just a baby wren.

I thought a pure heart would do,

But here only pure skin could woo.

I just waited for acceptance, I couldn't play along.

Didn't I wait long enough or did I just wait for too long?

Maybe I'm just silly after all.

So silly little me lets the beads down the thread.

Silly little me puts up a gun to her head.

She hurts herself the least with what she does next.

Silly little me lets the bullets put her to bed.

I'm silly, ain't I?