Shattered Me In Every Way

"Ahh, I love him !" I realized ...

His presence lights up my day

He cannot be compared in any way,

"Will confess him, when I feel to.." I said to myself

With a red face...that was already overwhelmed,

Days passed...

Not got a moment to confess 

& the feeling got surpassed,

Our bond got stronger day by day

& Now I thought confessing will be easier in every way,

But there the thought came 

Is he feeling the same? ,

What if he doesn't? 

What if it's only me who is attracted?

Will the bond remain unaffected?

Will he still talk like he does with me every day?

Or will he leave me alone and walk away?

The What's... Will's...if... Started the meter of overthinking

And that made me move back from confessing,

After a few months

At midnight

"Hey!" His text popped up & made me think...Is everything right? ,

I replied and the convo started

"Ukw Ig I am in love..." he texted,

Tho...Whenever he's there 

The butterflies in my stomach start their salsa. Anywhere,

But this time it was hip hop going on 

And "ohh dammnn!, With whom..how!?"

I replied & the convo went on ,

"Typing"

& With butterflies dancing

Expectations level growing

Every second waiting

Ooff...He's still typing! ,

& There the reply in a para format

Popped on my chat,

Explaining how THEY met 

How SHE was on his head 

And how difficult it was for him to forget,

How happy his life became

& How her presence made his mood to change,

The whole para praised her 

& I was neutral with a mood of 'error',

Until the last lines of the para came up

Which made me a bit down in the dumps,

And were...

"Ahh, I love her Diya, I realized finally"

With a big emoji of smiley,

& ukw "Her presence lights up my dayyy

& She cannot be compared in any way!"

With tears rolling down my face

I replied with some contented phrase

Cuz ik ....acting is the thing I ace!

Nah, I was not exasperated

But the thought that 

My love remained one-sided,

Made me cry & I felt happiness was snatched away

& this shattered me in every way.