Nostalgia of lost love

Many places I changed with my

Body only like drop of sea

Don't know where to go?

And like momentous memory

I forgot names faces of people

But with some and later few and at last remain one with lingering inviting  always but found impossible .

But I have no that legs to stand their firmly and wait long time

I don't know who carries me away and far away in no man's land

Could I survive there without love

Everything gleaming in this world collapsed and remain frightening darkness and I have to surpass it every moment like under shadow of death

Anything could bite my bleeding heart

Here and cruel animal pounce on me as prey than rape of other world

God knows which way I am leading

More than appetite thirst of loving one real person needs me

But at last where to go?

Is god watching my soul for security'

Or maybe this is end of my true dedicated Search.

Because that world where everybody beg from others with dying dedication

I am also like that begging ?

Naturally it wont happens 

predestined any thing?