No Going Back

I realise that I have left 

A part of myself in a place,

Where i shall probably never go back ...

A part of myself

That stayed with the pain 

Because I thought it 

Was my destiny,

A part of myself that 

Accepted criticism

With misplaced dignity.

A part of myself 

That believed self-worth 

Was not worth it,

A part of myself 

That lived in fear 

Thinking it was acceptance! 

A part of myself

That never said no 

For fear of abandonment.

A part of myself

That obeyed,

Conditioned by misconceptions,

And 

That part of myself

That refused to see reason,

Seeing it as a kind of treason! 

A part of myself 

That I loathed for being,

Foolish in suffering

 and relegating

It to youth and Silly 

Bickering! 

Epiphanic moments

Comes in spurts,

To shake you out of 

The shadows of ego

And fearful platitudes.

But we end up 

Turning deaf ears 

To reason.

Many a season 

Did pass by,

Until an insignificant

Mendicant

Restored the recalcitrant 

And forcefully

Rerouted the path

To realisation!

The path I walked 

Had eggshells 

And thorns,

Disguised as roses,

To finish the predestined 

Course! 

But awakening dawn's 

When the burdened soul 

Unknowingly 

Cries out for help,

And then a new day begins 

To change everything!

Inhaling courage to walk a different path,

The Master beckons

Relieved smiles on His face,

That bondage and freedom

No longer held me 

A prisoner.

That part of myself

I have left at that point,

Never to revisit,

Or I will forfeit

The blessings

That brought me here!