No escape

I am in a dark place,

that I cannot escape.

A small light suddenly appears

when I go near, it disappears.

I try searching for it

but how can if I still have an open slit?

Trying to get it together,

But nothing seems to get better

I'm a prisoner of my own thoughts

straggling I get free and bolt

But I only see four corners,

And no doors.

Circling around for hours

I feel exhausted and lie down on the floor.

And stare onto the highest point,

I feel dizzy and my joints feel sore

I recognized this pain that I felt when I thought I was hallucinating.

And It suddenly hits me that I am just dreaming

Dreaming of the monster I am holding onto for too long.

I am trying but it is too strong.

I can clearly see what I'm up against

A war is about to brew.

And I am ready to face whatever is underneath this place,

but I stopped when I recognize the face.

The monster inside,

It is me.