Muddled Thoughts!

I'm bleeding now

I don't know how

I don't know from where

But it's too much to bear;

You try to keep together,

What is not meant to be;

You strive harder and harder,

For the peace to be seen;

In every step you take,

You feel a trembling fear,

That things may fall apart,

Whatever the efforts may be.

Not long can I keep up,

This fear is eating me up.

I've lost my peaceful solitude,

And my smiling companionship;

What words do I take,

To explain my woes?

Which side do I take,

That would be fair and square?

Should I be selfish?

Or should I care for another?

What do I choose,

When both give a splinter?

One to my peace of mind,

And another to my conscience;

Which would hurt more?

I still do not know;

Why can’t there be an easier way?

There should be! But, could I make it there?

I wish I could vanish away

To some place I could live my way

Away from expectations

Away from complaints

Away from obligations

And away from restraints;

Away from judgement and despair

And live a simple life of love and care.

Then again, I go round and round

Lost in a whirlpool of thought

Cringing to where my reality stands

Unable to break my muddled thoughts!