Lost
Lost
Winters came home,
Still the broken stage,
I trynna calm with that messy self,
Waiting and waiting,
But nobody's ever noticed me,
I guess that's the karma,
All the ways;
I hear in her voice,
That she loves me in struggle,
So I touch that picture as if love's real,
I didn't choose this life,
And I always dreamt of running away,
But still, there's something that makes me stop,
All the ways;
From melancholic drapetomania to regardless sacrifices,
I waited ages just so you could praise me once,
Then I search for that one person,
Just to learn that I was always wrong and never right,
I have lost it again,
As its always my fault?
I see the others,
So happy leaving under blue roses,
Acting like nothing happened,
Somebody lost in,
Writing in this room,
As I play that song, crying in silence;
I lose it again,
The things weren't funny as I say in a hurry,
Nobody's ever understood me and I don't know how to help me,
I looked around with my lonely self,
Hating the unwanted words that can't be taken back,
Cuz there were moments I wanted to do it all,
And it is just words that take it all,
Making the same mistakes,
I'm losing it all,
Maybe that's the reason I hate myself,
As I have lost it again,
As its always my fault?