Lost And Found

Tallying the good and bad

Recklessly I have lived,

Forgiveness I never had

Until I forgave what I did.

At times I would hideaway

Ashamed of being so loud,

Until I decided to stay

A lot I had, to be proud of.

How much I could love I never knew

Never knew if I was enough to be loved

Until I was abandoned by you

Until I embraced the hurt.

Even when I was on my knees

Even when I was left to burn

Yet somehow I chose me

Tell me what else is love?

Until I saw that I don't want them to see

I won't change anything if I could

For look, I have found light in me

Our opinions can never change the truth

Never knew the light resided in me

Kept searching for a spark

The light I refused to see

Until it grew to pitch dark

Never knew so much purity I held

Never sang to my symphony

Until in silence, I dwelled

Until wicked sins hovered over me

Never knew so kind I am

Never knew so beautiful I could feel

Until I held my own hand

Until I learned to heal

So much yet, there is to find

So much I already know,

I do want to be more kind

Never want to stop to grow.

Never knew I loved poetry

Till it became what I sought

Never knew I could ever find me

Until one fine day, I was lost.