Life's a mess

All my life, I thought was a mess

I wish they could give me a rest 

My own thoughts fight my heart 

My mind's all but a broken art 

I don't know if I will make it through this life

Not when everything is at the tip of the knife 

Will I ever be enough brave 

or let it strangle me to my grave ? 

But when I think of this beautiful chaos 

and then wonder if my troubles are all paid off

Maybe this is how life is supposed to be 

and things are better than how I see