If I ever die....

If I ever die....

If I ever die,

without telling you why,

know that it was not your fault.

I couldn't unsee the futility of life

and just decided to leave.

If I ever die,

without telling you why,

know that I do love you,

It's just love was no longer

a good enough reason to stay,

 and it could still stay

after death

If I ever die, 

without telling you why,

know that I wasn't being selfish,

I just thought my death 

could finally give you

 the courage to walk away,

the courage to be free.

If I ever die,

without telling you why,

know that I was happy.

I have left with a smile

hoping you would live with one too.

So Dear mom,

If I ever die 

without telling you why,

know that I am at peace,

know that I am always here,

hoping you would finally focus 

on your happiness, not others.

If I ever die 

without telling you why...