I'm Fine
I'm Fine


I used to love
Who I was,
Didn't give a fuck what people think
I was that happy child
With a bunch of amazing friends
I did sport a lot
But just did it for fun
By playing ball I met my friends
That’s all that mattered back then
My friends were skinny, I was not.
Within time, It started to bother
I wanted to be like they were
A goal I would've never reached, for sure
Cause I will never see me
Like I saw them these days
They did stuff that I couldn't
Just cause of my weight
I started to struggle more and more
Felt something I've never felt before
I felt bad for being me,
It wasn't the turn of the century
Just the turn of my thoughts
But for me, my life had
changed a lot.
I felt like a misfit
That I don't belong in here
My confidence shrunk
I wanted to disappear
I made the choice to change my life
People complimented once I started losing weight.
Was it attention grabbing or just a way to survive?
They really started loving me with every pound I lost
But how I got rid of this shit no one bothered.
That I skipped meals for days and weeks, crying myself to sleep and praying for some better days for me.
That I couldn't eat even if I wanted to, that my stomach cramped with every calorie it got.
Full of emotions and empty at the same time, trying to convince myself well yeah
- I'm fine
That's what I wanted to be like, right ?