I hate forever

I hate forever

It’s a promise we couldn’t keep

Its us just lying through our teeth

Nothing is forever not even you and me

It’s an unrealistic expectation we have from everyone we meet

I can’t even love myself for forever then why must I seek that from everyone that comes close to me

It’s just a story that we’re stupid enough to believe

True love lasts forever they say but what if I did truly love him even though it ended prematurely

Is that just coincidence or wow lucky me

What is forever?

A declaration, a stamp of undying love or just a way to make sure I don’t lose whats meant for me

I thought he was my forever, I hate him for putting that idea in me

But we couldn’t even make it back to fall, another promise we couldn’t keep

Now I laugh at forever, feel sorry for those that believe in it, because very soon that fairy tale is going to shatter the bubble’s gonna burst and I’ll be waiting with a shovel and a lesson on the irrelevance of fate

But god do I wish for forever and I guess that’s the root cause for my hate

Because I haven’t found forever and I so intensely long for it for I know what forever feels like and I want to feel it all over again

I’ve been in the queue for so long, tired of wondering how long is the wait

I don’t hate forever, I just hate that we say it too often without understanding the true meaning of it

I don’t hate forever, I just hate not having found mine but I’m ready to wait