How do I?
How do I?
How do I carry scars like my manners,
Blend them in myself, like it was meant to be.
Feel so vulnerable in times I shouldn't,
Yet stay brave when I cannot be.
How do I not respond,
And still cannot keep a face, naturally numb?
How could I smile, when I can feel my heart burn?
How do the wounds I carry, ever dry away?
When the world never ceases to make it afresh,
Hit it twice each day.
How do I show, yet not showoff,
How do I express, yet not exaggerate,
Tell the world, that all they have done,
That made me rummage into my very self,
To find the cures that made me Ill.
How do I not dream, and experiment,
Why shouldn't I go out of Line?
Why should I carry my scars like my manners,
When I can fight?
This very thought keeps me going,
Striking back isn't winning,
I know for sure, I wouldn't do the same,
I will win that day, when all those around will shall have a safer place to bleed.