Fire within – Self-Love

Paru explores the fire within to realize the true meaning of my self-love.

I thought I would never find her…

As I rumbled through the darkest times of my life,

Rock bottom of all rock bottoms…with nothing left to lose.

Lost myself trying to please all around

Gaining love and connections from others all abound

Love and connections, I never really got,

No matter how hard I chased it in lot,

Because no external thing could ever fill

The endless void felt within

So, I went on the road trip to ‘reset.’

In the quest to find myself at my best

The trip was to find the lost me.

The intention to find the source of the deepest pain.

Also remove the agonizing blockages preventing me

From finding my true love and happiness

I went behind every possible lesson of the Masters.

Chakras, Auras, Timelines, all the way down to Spirits

And everything on its way and in between

I went deep inside my own self, as wide as I could.

Stopped on the way to release all the guilt and share.

That burdened my journey further down the lane.

I sat on the fields and made the list of everyone.

Who’s ever hurt me or everyone I’ve ever hurt.

I looked upon the bright sun and gave it all to him.

Asking him to release them all and let them burn.

With LOVE and gratitude, I found someone.

So special that I never thought would be ever found.

ME

And deeper in the journey in the thickest woods

I found the calling, a true sojourn towards healing.

I realized it was me, I needed love from the most.

Because it was me who WITHHELD the most love from myself

So, the day, the decision was made.

Loud and clear, to love MYSELF for sure!

And I did!

I started being kinder to myself.

Every time, I felt burdened, I thought of three things.

Positive and things that made me proud.

I made a list of every activity that made me fill up.

With joy, laughter, love, peace, and empowering emotions

And I made time to do them not once but daily.

Whenever, I’d feel heavy or stressed,

I stopped sitting on that feeling for long.

Its ok to look up the sky, let your heart cry.

But get up, fresh up and smile to enjoy.

First time

I started to say NO to things I didn’t want to do.

YES, to things that I felt pulled to do.

I started doing things again that set my soul on fire.

I kept writing down exactly what I wanted in all areas of life.

Health, Finance, Purpose, Work, Love, Life

When I say I wrote everything down,

I mean, I wrote my detailed ‘Dream Scenarios’ down.

And I even wrote a long and detailed list of things.

That cluttered my mind and soul,

that I wanted to leave behind as I travel back

I dream of someone who would grow and evolve with me.

Who would love me for ALL of me- even the parts?

That I know are ‘unlovable’ at times

In my mind, I started living with that someone.

Who ignites the flame of passion by mere existence?

In my soul, I found a purpose with that someone.

Who would dedicate our lives together to fulfilling that purpose?

In my body, who would pull me back when I get out of alignment.

Lovingly hold me accountable to all my potential

Yes, I found that someone who would change the world with me.

And impacting lives around and globally

And the list went on and on ….and on

That someone who presented me the beautiful life

Because I sure as heck deserved it true

The days of me settling with what’s available was over.

After writing all that down, I released it all to God and the Universe

And sent it off with love and gratitude.

That’s when I found ME.

Who came with everything on my dream list and more?

Unraveling the amazing things about her

Falling deeper and deeper in love

Changing lives, thoughts and love coming true

The day I released every fear, doubt, and dependence.

It created the space for me to find myself.

And love ME!

And in that vibration, everything I could ever want and more,

found its way to me.

When you find yourself and love yourself,

you magnetically attract everything magical.

that’s meant for you in this lifetime... and more ❤