Enough

The darkness engulfs my body

My skin absorbs it

It mixes in my blood

It wracks my nerves

It clenched my heart

My brain can't work

And it's so pathetic

That a mere sentence

"You can never be enough"

Could do this to me

Maybe it's true

Maybe my heart's fire has reduced to a spark

Maybe it was never lit in the first place

I'm screaming silently

Even if I think I've created a beauty

It's never enough to please them

And if it's never enough to please them

Then what was it's point?

I want to tell myself I love me

I want to look at myself the way a butterfly would look at a field of flowers

The way a guitarist would look at his guitar

But all I could do

Is look at my reflection in the mirror

And want to break every inch of it

I want to be the ethereal moon between the stars

I want to be the hopeful sun between the clouds

But how I could I?

If I can't even touch the sky

Someone tell me

I beg you to

how could I ever

ever be enough?