Diary 31 October 2019

This week’s been awesome, more awesome,

Diwali HOLIDAYS, flight to Hyderabad

And it was a happy home.

The family is calm, cheering (Not fighting).

Amongst our hormones; harmonies.

Since I'm 27 and unmarried single

'TUMBLR ' AND WHISPER

Are excessively enforcing my adrenaline

Taking pics of my genitals

Getting female undressed pics

Especially the 'desi' (Indian)

Are sensual...

And on 29th, found a chat where

"An Indian has asked requested his wife to sleep with

His boss for his job sake"

I've asked the same question and two others

Have responded...

Both men have shown their wife pics

They were good and decent.

I loved them both especially the one to the core.

Among three was a woman

Who did not show her face?

But is chatting erotically, showing nipples

And I'm showing my chest and genitals.

I'm in love with these conversations.

These are things make me happy.

Since I've never been to any girl

Nor had a gf or seen anyone...

Never was intimate... sad and... gloomy...

In this Regards...

Whatsoever, I'll plan to brothels

Or find an old lady

Soon, because I'm serious, seriously looking

For physical relationships.

Not earning much to demand a girl

Ask my dad for marriage...

Till 27, I've holder enough

Being decent may lead to death...

Now, I should be ugly

Showing myself to everyone...

The only way out... asking out everyone...

OPENLY...

I'll do it... given advertisements for escorts

Printed 'spoken English trainer ' cards

Applying in other countries

To get opportunities

To be more open with Regards to sex

Is all I want now.

This is what I am; a pervert

Sneaking into.... never

But from now I'll do...

Whisper and all other strange chats...

Making calls to whomsoever...

What all will lead to getting laid

I'll do...

Which is my intention and resolution for 2019?